a very nice beginning...
since i have just downed a glass of wine very quickly and because i have no clue if i've ever dared to mention this to a mass audience, i present you all with my new improved vision of my future.
i dunno where i'm gonan be living, most likely still boston. i wanna sing. in that crazy, makes your heart ache and you feel a little sick to your stomach kind of way that makes just about anything worth doing. and also makes me so scared. i'd really be happy doing anything in theater, right now. and yeah, i still am very interested in biology. i think i always will be. i love learning and i'm still giddy when i go out on whale watches. i love the animals, i love to study them, i love the boat and the feeling of being out on the water in the beautiful ocean environment.
but, i don't cry anymore. i used to cry when i thought about studying biology after school. i suppose i just was never told i'd be able to do what i wanted to do. i felt relegated to teaching, which i enjoyed doing... but i know now it's not where my heart really is. i think it will always be part of my life, something i'm good at and something that is sort of a natural part of who i am.
i love to perform. i love to be backstage. i love the scenic design and costumes and lighting and analyzing the lyrics and listening to the music... the whole world entices me. and always have. but it was something i never even fathomed i could do professionally. i figured: i can work at bio. i can be good and do it. but you can't work at theater. it's 90% talent i never thought i had. after many conversations with good people, i think my mind is changed.
so. i'll most likely never be on Broadway. but it's the experience and the act of performing that makes me happy. i figure i can do it anywhere and be just as happy. maybe even happier travelling and seeing the country and the world. i have no clue how it's going to happen, but i'm working at trying to nail jobs backstage and then at least i'll be in the world. or getting a temp job. i really don't care about money except as far as food, shelter and getting new cds,dvds and electronics go (i'm not kidding). i just have to make enough to support myself, and do what i love.
i believe hapiness is more important than anything. and my mind will most likely change a million times before i come to my senses... but i've always rolled with the punches and i'm excited about this... and now i don't have to answer the "whatcha doin' after school?" question for a few more people.
i dunno where i'm gonan be living, most likely still boston. i wanna sing. in that crazy, makes your heart ache and you feel a little sick to your stomach kind of way that makes just about anything worth doing. and also makes me so scared. i'd really be happy doing anything in theater, right now. and yeah, i still am very interested in biology. i think i always will be. i love learning and i'm still giddy when i go out on whale watches. i love the animals, i love to study them, i love the boat and the feeling of being out on the water in the beautiful ocean environment.
but, i don't cry anymore. i used to cry when i thought about studying biology after school. i suppose i just was never told i'd be able to do what i wanted to do. i felt relegated to teaching, which i enjoyed doing... but i know now it's not where my heart really is. i think it will always be part of my life, something i'm good at and something that is sort of a natural part of who i am.
i love to perform. i love to be backstage. i love the scenic design and costumes and lighting and analyzing the lyrics and listening to the music... the whole world entices me. and always have. but it was something i never even fathomed i could do professionally. i figured: i can work at bio. i can be good and do it. but you can't work at theater. it's 90% talent i never thought i had. after many conversations with good people, i think my mind is changed.
so. i'll most likely never be on Broadway. but it's the experience and the act of performing that makes me happy. i figure i can do it anywhere and be just as happy. maybe even happier travelling and seeing the country and the world. i have no clue how it's going to happen, but i'm working at trying to nail jobs backstage and then at least i'll be in the world. or getting a temp job. i really don't care about money except as far as food, shelter and getting new cds,dvds and electronics go (i'm not kidding). i just have to make enough to support myself, and do what i love.
i believe hapiness is more important than anything. and my mind will most likely change a million times before i come to my senses... but i've always rolled with the punches and i'm excited about this... and now i don't have to answer the "whatcha doin' after school?" question for a few more people.