A Small Pile of Big Things
Here's my main challenge:
I have a small pile of major goals/projects going on right now:
-Find a mothafuckin day job. It's upsetting to me how long this is taking. Longest I've gone unemployed before this streak? About a month. I'm bangin out several applications every week. I'm not even geting PFO emails, let alone interviews. I get the odd temp gig, and I'm assured that things pick up in the fall, but the summer was ROUGH. I've pretty much reconciled with the reality that I'm going to have to lower my expectations and start looking for service jobs (if they'll have me, with ten years of office experience on my resume), but I'm apprehensive about this because I remember them being very difficult to escape from, which makes them iffy as a "for now" measure. But. Beggars, choosers, etc.
-Get fitter (this breaks down into several sub goals of eating better, exercising daily, and just generally trying to give myself better habits. I am capable of, and even enjoy, doing these things. The trick to date has been consistency. The results only really happen when these things are stuck to.) I don't have any specific number-based wieight goals in mind, I don't feel thinking about it like that is helpful. I just want to "look better", as in healthier, fitter. In part, for my own personal aesthetics, and partially because visually being an overall more accessible package will help me with regards to the acting stuff. I don't LIKE that that's a fact, but it is a fact. I know some of you who read me are dismayed by the moral implications of "eating well" and "looking better", and I don't intend to suggest any moral superiority or inferiority with these terms, but if my (probably very occasional) talk of these goals bothers you, please let me know, I'll do the whole filter thing.
-Get a goddam agent. I've got the headshots, I'm reasonably experienced, I've been in movies and TV shows (in teeeeny tiny parts, but still!). I'm pretty confident once I actually nab myself an agent here, if they even marginally know what to do with me, I can book the odd gig. I just don't even know where to start. My agent in Edmonton more or less found me, so I don't really know how the hunt works here. I did a round in April, sent out to a bunch of places, but kinda lost my gumption, never followed up. I'm about to do another round, hopefully I can power through that.
-Get back to the writing. I talked about this a little in the last post. I just look forward to take joy in telling stories again. In addition to the play I mentioned, I have a few other things on the go.
Those are sort of the big ones. Individually, these are all things I am excited about undertaking, but as a small pile of big things I feel I have to deal with a little bit every day, I feel a little overwhelmed.I can keep a couple of them in focus, but then others fall away for a bit and then I have to play catch-up. And unfortunately, one-at-a-time isn't really an option; my life doesn't really work like that. I feel like all these things are of pretty equal importance and really need to get rolling in tandem here.
I guess I'm not really looking for advice, I mean if you have it to give, go ahead, but...this is more just a kind of "Ya Know? Anybody else feel that way?" kinda post.
So...Ya Know?
I have a small pile of major goals/projects going on right now:
-Find a mothafuckin day job. It's upsetting to me how long this is taking. Longest I've gone unemployed before this streak? About a month. I'm bangin out several applications every week. I'm not even geting PFO emails, let alone interviews. I get the odd temp gig, and I'm assured that things pick up in the fall, but the summer was ROUGH. I've pretty much reconciled with the reality that I'm going to have to lower my expectations and start looking for service jobs (if they'll have me, with ten years of office experience on my resume), but I'm apprehensive about this because I remember them being very difficult to escape from, which makes them iffy as a "for now" measure. But. Beggars, choosers, etc.
-Get fitter (this breaks down into several sub goals of eating better, exercising daily, and just generally trying to give myself better habits. I am capable of, and even enjoy, doing these things. The trick to date has been consistency. The results only really happen when these things are stuck to.) I don't have any specific number-based wieight goals in mind, I don't feel thinking about it like that is helpful. I just want to "look better", as in healthier, fitter. In part, for my own personal aesthetics, and partially because visually being an overall more accessible package will help me with regards to the acting stuff. I don't LIKE that that's a fact, but it is a fact. I know some of you who read me are dismayed by the moral implications of "eating well" and "looking better", and I don't intend to suggest any moral superiority or inferiority with these terms, but if my (probably very occasional) talk of these goals bothers you, please let me know, I'll do the whole filter thing.
-Get a goddam agent. I've got the headshots, I'm reasonably experienced, I've been in movies and TV shows (in teeeeny tiny parts, but still!). I'm pretty confident once I actually nab myself an agent here, if they even marginally know what to do with me, I can book the odd gig. I just don't even know where to start. My agent in Edmonton more or less found me, so I don't really know how the hunt works here. I did a round in April, sent out to a bunch of places, but kinda lost my gumption, never followed up. I'm about to do another round, hopefully I can power through that.
-Get back to the writing. I talked about this a little in the last post. I just look forward to take joy in telling stories again. In addition to the play I mentioned, I have a few other things on the go.
Those are sort of the big ones. Individually, these are all things I am excited about undertaking, but as a small pile of big things I feel I have to deal with a little bit every day, I feel a little overwhelmed.I can keep a couple of them in focus, but then others fall away for a bit and then I have to play catch-up. And unfortunately, one-at-a-time isn't really an option; my life doesn't really work like that. I feel like all these things are of pretty equal importance and really need to get rolling in tandem here.
I guess I'm not really looking for advice, I mean if you have it to give, go ahead, but...this is more just a kind of "Ya Know? Anybody else feel that way?" kinda post.
So...Ya Know?