Life
When You Look at me what do you See? I know you see a fat loser who aways does drugs, spends all his money on drugs, etc. It really pisses me off how the human mind works. I DONT spend all my money on drugs, infact i hardly buy them, i dont fucking steal, Ive been sober for a week and a half now and thats pretty big for me to say. I smoked one Joint Friday but its only getting high, you just idk, feel high i guess. Someone can only get pushed far enought untill they hit that certain point where they do something that they would regret for the rest of their life or whats left of it anyways. Im pretty close to that point right now as it is. People judge but they dont know, they dont spend the day with me, live with me, etc. But hey, its their fault for having fault judgement on somebody who is just trying to live. They (people) are about to get what they want in one big dosage, and once it happens, there are no turn-backs, regrets or anything. I really hope it makes them happy what they turn me into. I try to hide the damage people cause me but it builds up after a while you know. So I cant paint over it anymore, I cant bury it anylonger, its kinda like how John Wayne Gacy hid 29 of his 33 victims under his house. Well Eventually it got too crowded, smelled of rotting corpses. So he had to start dumping them in the river. Out in the open, for anyone who happened to see saw. But this isnt going to be something you have to be there at the right moment to see. What should I do? I DONT FUCKING KNOW why dont yall tell me, People who let their monsters out of their wombs too early to embark on other people like myself, ya I proably deserve it but it really doesnt fucking matter. Now Ill go on to tell my day. Well Me and Justin.C went to walmart, that was ok i guess. Finally made it to lowes to get my stuff i need, so im happy about that. We saw Briana at Walmart, She moved to Ocean springs plus she is grounded so that sucks all in General. Then we went to the mall Didnt stay there for long, then Me , Mike, Angela and Justin .C went skating for a bit. Talked to My mom about an hour ago, she gets out Thursday so thats pretty kool. She's been locked up for about 38 months now so ya, its been awhile. Well I guess im out, Later