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trying to think of something to do. both at the moment and as far as a grand scale/life kinda deal. something to look forward to, i guess; maybe just something to work towards. the only things i have at hand are making movies w/ the intergalactic big star #5 gang (especially completing Nuggets) & i guess trying to find a stinky job. for the 1st time i actually want to get one, not just having everyone tell me i should. not so much because i want money or anything, i dunno i guess for independence or somethin' of the sort. although there are a couple purchases i'd like to make soon, like some t-shirts for bands i've gotten into more lately since according to my shirts, my taste has been stunted for years; don't have a shirt for any of my current faves (other than tool & clutch). & i also gotta get life aquatic & rushmore on dvd; the not-particularly-legal links online for 'em keep dying. maybe pulp fiction & resevoir dogs just to keep things even w/ my 2 favorite directors. but aside from the prospect of working (yipee? [wow, that was only 1/2 sarcastic; i'm a tool]) & filming, i got nothin'. can't even think of anything to do right now. i'm writing in this thing for crissakes. i dunno, maybe i'm just bummed out; been a rough couple of months for the ol' li-ster. (not going into details; if you just gotta know, you nosey sons of..., talk to me some time, i guess) maybe listening to pretty depressing music isn't helping, either (stuff like katatonia, my dying bride, paradise lost [although they're not really that depressive], etc. not sentenced though; i'm sorry, but i just can't bring myself to take their intentionally depressing songs seriously). & if you've seen me & i've seemed fine, it's just cuz i always seem to try to act more normal around the pallies, i've noticed. so then those closest to me have no idea how miserable i am at times, which has been working out like gangbusters! eh, i'll figure somethin' out, after all: i always do! err... sometimes do! well, occasionally do! ... um, seldom do? ... ok, rarely do. .... OK! OK! never do! gah!! get off my back, reality, you prickbastard! seriously, reality, seriously! gah! i mean, .... gah!
oh, just so no one thinks i'm contemplating liam-cide based on the suicidal mood icon is a joke; i just think it'd be funny to have the little blue guy with like a noose or a gun to his head; & on that topic, me & mike willsen have an idea we may do as a short movie(we probably won't do it, so here it is!): this guy's about to kill himself & he plays this really depressing song that's like his suicide diddy or something, but he leaves the music player on shuffle, so the song finishes while he's preparing for some death & then "don't worry, be happy" plays so he perks up & goes out where the sun is now shining & the world seems a better place.
then maybe he gets hit by a truck or something.
liam is over and freaking out! (& not like "oh god, i'm freaking out!" i mean like how i used to say that all the time, but now i added the "freaking" cuz shut up!)
oh, just so no one thinks i'm contemplating liam-cide based on the suicidal mood icon is a joke; i just think it'd be funny to have the little blue guy with like a noose or a gun to his head; & on that topic, me & mike willsen have an idea we may do as a short movie(we probably won't do it, so here it is!): this guy's about to kill himself & he plays this really depressing song that's like his suicide diddy or something, but he leaves the music player on shuffle, so the song finishes while he's preparing for some death & then "don't worry, be happy" plays so he perks up & goes out where the sun is now shining & the world seems a better place.
then maybe he gets hit by a truck or something.
liam is over and freaking out! (& not like "oh god, i'm freaking out!" i mean like how i used to say that all the time, but now i added the "freaking" cuz shut up!)