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I tend to tell myself that everything happens for a reason. No matter what it is there is something deep inside the situation that makes it ok. Then at times I find it hard to wait for reason. It isn't instant gratification that Im looking for, nor is it impatients. It's just that somethings in life that happen are so bad, have you so confused, lost, hurt, depressed, and lonely there can't possibly be a reason. Why does my pain give reason to a situation...is that really fair? Why do bad things in my life have to happen in order for me to find reason? That's not really fair, is it? So all these time people comfort me with this does it mean I have no control over what happens or what did? I just have to wait around for the reason? No.
This is where choice comes in. Yes, everything does happen for a reason. That doesn't mean that destiny is already planned out for you, it means that whatever you do builds the stairway to it. Some peoples path is layed out alot longer then others....I tend to believe thats because that longer path was built by more pain, hurt, life trauma, yeah good things too, that others have yet to really experience. Key word EXPERIENCE of life.
As pissed off as I get, as sad as I get, no matter how much I cry or am lonely...I stop.....think....wait...right this moment there is a reason this is all happening. Why am I getting upset? Because of all this my path has a few more stairs...wait I can take a couple more steps up. And I say this is exactly where I want to be...because I put myself here. Weather conscious or not this is where i decided to go, and here I am.....now if I could just find a light switch.......
This is where choice comes in. Yes, everything does happen for a reason. That doesn't mean that destiny is already planned out for you, it means that whatever you do builds the stairway to it. Some peoples path is layed out alot longer then others....I tend to believe thats because that longer path was built by more pain, hurt, life trauma, yeah good things too, that others have yet to really experience. Key word EXPERIENCE of life.
As pissed off as I get, as sad as I get, no matter how much I cry or am lonely...I stop.....think....wait...right this moment there is a reason this is all happening. Why am I getting upset? Because of all this my path has a few more stairs...wait I can take a couple more steps up. And I say this is exactly where I want to be...because I put myself here. Weather conscious or not this is where i decided to go, and here I am.....now if I could just find a light switch.......