Love has failed me once again....
So, yea I haven't written in a while. Alot has been going on. Just in the past week, I've lost a best friend and a really great guy. So yea, my friend Patti just quit talking to me one day. I have no idea whats going on with that picture. I didn't say anything or do anything to make her not want to talk to me. I don't know!!! Life officially sucks. Oh and Chaz broke up with me. Something about he cares for me too much and he didn't want to hurt me if he went out and hooked up with other people. That was in one breath and then he turned around and said I want my girlfriend to be with me every night. Ok...I drove to New Orleans to see his ass three times a week. He came to my house once and that was when we first met. Whats wrong with that picture? I always went over there any free moment that I had because I liked him that much. By the way...I still have some stuff over there if your reading this. It just sucks because I finally meet a guy who made me feel good again, who made me trust again, and for what. To get my heart trampled on once again. I have no clue what went wrong or where this was all coming from. I mean one day I'm in New Orleans and everything is absolutely wonderful, he tells me I'm beautiful and that he loves me. And then the next I'm here pouring out my heart in this fucking journal for the whole world to see. I really feel sad for you Chaz, because you really need to figure out what it is that you want. I mean I thought you said that you didn't want to be in the same lifestyle you were in in Europe. I thought you didnt want to go from girl to girl every night. Your doing a wonderful job of changing yourself. I mean I never expected you to stay home every night that I wasnt there. You can have a social life and a girlfriend and balance them both if you choose to. Well whatever, you made your decision and I'm not going to keep you in a great relationship if you don't want to be in it.
~Christy~