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omg! i'm gonna shoot! okay i hate jeremy and chi. jeremy is being the biggest asshole! and chi on the other hand. omg. where do i begin. okay i wasnt by the computer and he called me a slutty whore. i cant take it anymore. its just like i'm there for him to take his anger out on. i sware, and the bad thing is, is that i still love him. i just told him that we shouldnt be friends, he doesnt even care : ( whatever. i dont even care anymore. he sayz i've changed but then he wont tell me how! but thats bull shit, he is the one that changed!! i cant even talk to him about anything anymore! he used to be my best friend, and when i look at all the late nights we talked on the phone, and all the sweet letters he wrote me, its sad. I LOVE HIM. but i cant have him. i cant even have him as a friend because of the way he treats me. i dont understand what i did to him. okay enough about him. last night mee, kelly, joe, matt, and pimp went to the carnival. it was fun but i started crying on the last ride i went on because i felt so sick. we went on the gravitron wif my sis and jim and the guy that was working it, called my sister fat so jim got in his face! lol! and then we were on the ferris wheel and we were giving justin the finger cause he is a jerk, so when we got off justin got his lil "girlfriend" to get in my face! lol i got right back in her face tho! kelly and joe started going out last night! isnt that cute? yeah i know! and today i cut myself wif a knife and i almost hadda go get stitches!! i didnt wanna go! i was so scared!! and then me my mommy and gunner went out to dinner, we hadda hot waitor! it was cool. but im still really upset, and i love him. my life sucks.