I picked my nose a couple times while writing this.
It has been far too long since I've posted in here, which I consider both good and bad. Bad, because I miss writing. There's something about writing (when I don't have to for class) that is so effortless and comforting. I feel like I can express myself so much better when I write. When I talk I tend to screw everything up - which is why I'm contemplating giving it up completely ;). I'm a huge mushmouth. I need like, a debate team and a panel of 21 voters to determine the most accurate or likely interpretation of my words most of the time. I also miss writing in here because I feel a lot closer to those who keep a journal. It comforts me to know that, even if I don't talk to many of you individually on a day to day basis, I can still know what's going on in your life and you can know what's going on in mine. I consider it good that I haven't posted in a while because I never felt like I needed to. I stopped posting around the time I started my relationship, 8 and a half months ago, but I'd like to gradually pick it up again now. I love being able to talk to Emma about the day to day happenings in my life, and the comfort that that provides me has not stopped. Yet I feel like I'm losing touch with some of my friends that are important to me, and that has to stop (icus).
Re-reading my posts from last year, I noticed that, while I always looked for a funny (perhaps obnoxiously, over-the-top funny) or witty approach to relaying everything, I was actually very, very depressed at the time. Moreso than I'd ever been to that point, and hopefully moreso than I ever will be again. It was probably more of an attempt to cheer myself up than make anyone else laugh, and I think it's kind of sad in retrospect.
I can assure everyone that I'm not depressed at all anymore, thankfully. I've warmed up to Boston, mostly, since last year. I don't feel so alone; though I'm always painfully aware of the fleeting nature of happiness. In my experience, inactivity breeds depression, and frankly I can never find a moment's rest anymore. This year has been nuts. I work Mondays and Tuesdays from 3-11:30 (What? I'm there NOW, you say? How very observant of thee), I have a capella rehearsal on Sundays and Thursdays from 7-10 and at least one performance a week, I have really time-consuming requirement courses for my major, and of course trying to weave in time for Emma/friends. On top of that I've been sick/feeling physically and emotionally exhausted for most of it and I still haven't found a way around that sleep obstacle.
That's sort of a mini update for you. I'm looking forward to TG break, as I'll be going to NY for the long weekend to see Kris w/ Emma (if ur going to be there let me know!). I'll be posting quite often, hopefully. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do me a favor and call me or IM me from time to time. I miss all of you. If you live in Boston and I haven't seen you much over the past however many months I'm sorry. Let's try to fix that.
Talk soon.
jason
Re-reading my posts from last year, I noticed that, while I always looked for a funny (perhaps obnoxiously, over-the-top funny) or witty approach to relaying everything, I was actually very, very depressed at the time. Moreso than I'd ever been to that point, and hopefully moreso than I ever will be again. It was probably more of an attempt to cheer myself up than make anyone else laugh, and I think it's kind of sad in retrospect.
I can assure everyone that I'm not depressed at all anymore, thankfully. I've warmed up to Boston, mostly, since last year. I don't feel so alone; though I'm always painfully aware of the fleeting nature of happiness. In my experience, inactivity breeds depression, and frankly I can never find a moment's rest anymore. This year has been nuts. I work Mondays and Tuesdays from 3-11:30 (What? I'm there NOW, you say? How very observant of thee), I have a capella rehearsal on Sundays and Thursdays from 7-10 and at least one performance a week, I have really time-consuming requirement courses for my major, and of course trying to weave in time for Emma/friends. On top of that I've been sick/feeling physically and emotionally exhausted for most of it and I still haven't found a way around that sleep obstacle.
That's sort of a mini update for you. I'm looking forward to TG break, as I'll be going to NY for the long weekend to see Kris w/ Emma (if ur going to be there let me know!). I'll be posting quite often, hopefully. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do me a favor and call me or IM me from time to time. I miss all of you. If you live in Boston and I haven't seen you much over the past however many months I'm sorry. Let's try to fix that.
Talk soon.
jason