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lyf is boring once again.everything good and awsome always happening 2 every1 but me.everything i want i never get.everything i get i never want.i hate my lyf.mayb i should stop wanting, then mayb i'll start getting.im just so sick of it.i mean, im in 9th grade and nothing has ever happened 2 me.i mean, i wanted this year 2 hav sumthing.i wanted 2 always b able 2 look back and say "samn that was awsome.i remember how awsome i felt.damn that year was good" but i cant.thers only 18 days (i think) and i got nothing.its sad bcuz all i said 2 myself all year was that 9th grade was gonna b a year sumthing bigs gonna happen.sumthing id never 4get.sumthing risky,fun,and just...u kno, awsome.wat if every years lyk this.wat if m whole lyfs lyk this.wat if it all sux 4ever.wat if im always gonna b lyk this.just here.not really living, just here....it gets me really scared and i dont kno wat 2 do.i just dont kno.and dont even kno who 2 turn 2 bcuz its my problem, my fear.i just, dont wanna liv lyk this anymore.its so dull.boring.bland.pointless.and yet im here, and im gonna b here til im old and die.so now wat.now wat...