Epiphany
There is always a point in our lives when we feel like we regret one or several things that we have done. I hate feeling this way, but I am human, and as a human, I want more, and I also make mistakes. Admitting and owning up to these mistakes and the consequences is difficult, but what is even more difficult is dealing with the consequences, and looking at ourselves in the mirror as we really are, with all of our baggage, guilt, and of course, regret. The way I see it is that I can't prevent myself from feeling regret, and feeling that I have lost something that I could have had if I had done or not something. When it comes down to it, what we are is a result of our actions. If our only action is the thought of regret, and thinking about what we should have/shouldn't done or could have been we are only making way for more regret because we can spend the time thinking about what we regret working hard to come closer to achieving our goals. So I fucked up, more than once, but I can take these fuck-ups and create something good out of them, rather than feeling sorry for myself and dwelling on past actions or inaction. I'm taking this one day at a time. I'm trying my hardest not to fall into old habits, and not let my regret get the best of me. I feel it everyday, but I try to use it as fuel to get me to the next day. A ver que pasa.