*sighs*
I hate being lonely.
I hate being lonely, and I hate feeling this weird mixed emotion of guilt and ineptetude. Like I'm not good enough, and it's something I shouldn't be. I'm tired of being a carpet, but I don't know how to do anything else.
I thought today I had an epiphany, that the only reason I've got at least three guys that'd do me at the drop of a hat, and one that wouldn't even need the hat to drop. I've got every reason to feel, and know, that I'm the hot, sexy little thing that can make heads turn. And then my stupid insecurity came back. Damn.
But, I saw Sin City tonight, god that movie rocks. Especially the bit in the car with the guy whose supposed to be dead but isn't, but is all at the same time...ya. If you've seen it, you know what I mean. I was giggling madly throughout that whole bit.
I hate being lonely, and I hate feeling this weird mixed emotion of guilt and ineptetude. Like I'm not good enough, and it's something I shouldn't be. I'm tired of being a carpet, but I don't know how to do anything else.
I thought today I had an epiphany, that the only reason I've got at least three guys that'd do me at the drop of a hat, and one that wouldn't even need the hat to drop. I've got every reason to feel, and know, that I'm the hot, sexy little thing that can make heads turn. And then my stupid insecurity came back. Damn.
But, I saw Sin City tonight, god that movie rocks. Especially the bit in the car with the guy whose supposed to be dead but isn't, but is all at the same time...ya. If you've seen it, you know what I mean. I was giggling madly throughout that whole bit.