When you wake up crying, you know the day's gonna be a bit different.
It's been an odd day...weekend...week...month...whatever.
I feel better now, I just went out to stand in the rain. Though people may say elsewise, rain is an amazing cure for the soul. Though now I'm sure a few people that were driving on that little stretch of fourteenth infront of my house are going to be slightly weirded out.
I got in deep shit for the first time in a long while this weekend. I've also come to the conclusion that there is something seriously wrong with me. A few somethings really. I might just need to go looking for some help. Don't be too surprised (not like you would be anyways)if I spend a little more time away. If you need me, look outside or upstairs. I need some vitamin D.
I really, really envy some people. They light a cigarette, a joint, take a hit, a pull from a bottle and everything's good. They can go get high, get drunk, whatever, and the world is a better place. I know so many people who's release is drinking, far too many people, all of them far too young. They have a shitty day, they go out and get smashed. They've all invited me to go drinking, and I've never said yes. I've wanted to, desperately, but I've never said yes. I've got one addiction degrading to my health, one, and that's far too many. Drinking would just make it worse...or would it? I'm so tempted to try...
Fucking deamons.
I feel better now, I just went out to stand in the rain. Though people may say elsewise, rain is an amazing cure for the soul. Though now I'm sure a few people that were driving on that little stretch of fourteenth infront of my house are going to be slightly weirded out.
I got in deep shit for the first time in a long while this weekend. I've also come to the conclusion that there is something seriously wrong with me. A few somethings really. I might just need to go looking for some help. Don't be too surprised (not like you would be anyways)if I spend a little more time away. If you need me, look outside or upstairs. I need some vitamin D.
I really, really envy some people. They light a cigarette, a joint, take a hit, a pull from a bottle and everything's good. They can go get high, get drunk, whatever, and the world is a better place. I know so many people who's release is drinking, far too many people, all of them far too young. They have a shitty day, they go out and get smashed. They've all invited me to go drinking, and I've never said yes. I've wanted to, desperately, but I've never said yes. I've got one addiction degrading to my health, one, and that's far too many. Drinking would just make it worse...or would it? I'm so tempted to try...
Fucking deamons.