[fic] Holding On (PG)
Title: Holding On
Pairings: Yoosu (implied), ChunJae (bff!)
Rating: PG
A/N: This is my first fic. 7 years of reading fanfiction, it was bound to happen. Inspired by the time Junsu was hospitalized in LA. It’s very short so I don’t think a summary is needed.
Late at night the hospital room was silent safe for the sound of steady breathing. Yoochun sat still watching the boy in bed who was peacefully sleeping. He looked tired and his face was strained with worry and regret. “I should have noticed sooner…” He was so caught up in his thoughts he didn’t even notice someone enter.
“Hey.” Jaejoong put his hand on his shoulder and squeezed reassuringly.
“Hey.” Yoochun answered looking up at him.
“How’s he doing?”
“The temperature’s fallen and they gave him some sedatives so he should sleep for awhile.”
“You should too.” Yoochun looked up about to protest, but Jae spoke before he uttered a sound:
“Don’t look at me like that. You know it’s true.” Then, in a softer voice he continued:
“Look, Junsu’s here because he tried too hard and didn’t let himself rest. That’s exactly what you’re doing right now. Do you want to take his place? I know you want to be there when he wakes up, but he’s a big boy. He sure won’t be pleased when he finds out you’re wearing yourself out because of him.”
Yoochun sighed and for a few moments continued sitting there. Then, quietly he stood up and left the room.
“We all need rest. Come on, we’ll see him first thing in the morning.” Jaejoong assured as they continued walking towards the exit. They walked in silence for awhile. Then, Jaejoong spoke again:
“When I first met Junsu he was so independent. We were on good terms, but I wouldn’t say close. It seemed like he didn’t really need anyone.” Jae paused and smiled to himself. “Until he met you. He still doesn’t want to admit it, but he needs you a lot. He still tries to look tough, but around you he’s taking his guard down.”
They reached the car. Outside it was chilly and still dark. In the early morning the streets were deserted. But instead of getting into the car Jaejoong paused and turned to look at Yoochun. “I know I’m selfish, but I need you too, you know.”
“Jae…”
“I’m so grateful I met you. I don’t think I could make it without you.” For Jaejoong such moments of insecurity were rare. The older man always tried to hide his weakness. Though people often praised his beauty in a way it was also a burden and he put a lot of effort to reaffirm his masculinity. Yoochun felt honoured that he was one of the few who got to see his fragile side. Then he felt arms around his neck and a warm body pressing against his. There were no more words said. Yoochun just continued holding him tightly and whispering into his ear: “It’s okay. We’re going to be okay.”
Pairings: Yoosu (implied), ChunJae (bff!)
Rating: PG
A/N: This is my first fic. 7 years of reading fanfiction, it was bound to happen. Inspired by the time Junsu was hospitalized in LA. It’s very short so I don’t think a summary is needed.
Late at night the hospital room was silent safe for the sound of steady breathing. Yoochun sat still watching the boy in bed who was peacefully sleeping. He looked tired and his face was strained with worry and regret. “I should have noticed sooner…” He was so caught up in his thoughts he didn’t even notice someone enter.
“Hey.” Jaejoong put his hand on his shoulder and squeezed reassuringly.
“Hey.” Yoochun answered looking up at him.
“How’s he doing?”
“The temperature’s fallen and they gave him some sedatives so he should sleep for awhile.”
“You should too.” Yoochun looked up about to protest, but Jae spoke before he uttered a sound:
“Don’t look at me like that. You know it’s true.” Then, in a softer voice he continued:
“Look, Junsu’s here because he tried too hard and didn’t let himself rest. That’s exactly what you’re doing right now. Do you want to take his place? I know you want to be there when he wakes up, but he’s a big boy. He sure won’t be pleased when he finds out you’re wearing yourself out because of him.”
Yoochun sighed and for a few moments continued sitting there. Then, quietly he stood up and left the room.
“We all need rest. Come on, we’ll see him first thing in the morning.” Jaejoong assured as they continued walking towards the exit. They walked in silence for awhile. Then, Jaejoong spoke again:
“When I first met Junsu he was so independent. We were on good terms, but I wouldn’t say close. It seemed like he didn’t really need anyone.” Jae paused and smiled to himself. “Until he met you. He still doesn’t want to admit it, but he needs you a lot. He still tries to look tough, but around you he’s taking his guard down.”
They reached the car. Outside it was chilly and still dark. In the early morning the streets were deserted. But instead of getting into the car Jaejoong paused and turned to look at Yoochun. “I know I’m selfish, but I need you too, you know.”
“Jae…”
“I’m so grateful I met you. I don’t think I could make it without you.” For Jaejoong such moments of insecurity were rare. The older man always tried to hide his weakness. Though people often praised his beauty in a way it was also a burden and he put a lot of effort to reaffirm his masculinity. Yoochun felt honoured that he was one of the few who got to see his fragile side. Then he felt arms around his neck and a warm body pressing against his. There were no more words said. Yoochun just continued holding him tightly and whispering into his ear: “It’s okay. We’re going to be okay.”