I'm excited and humbled.
Last night, Bludhaven held their DFA awards. They are awards that are nominated by and voted on by the list members, kind of like the Oscars only better. ;0) I won three of them. I still really am in awe. I think winning an award can spark a couple reactions. It would be easy to let it go to ones head. i won't because to be honest, and certain friends will spork me, I can't help partly wanting to demand a recount, there has to be some mistake. The second is just to be humbled. An award is not something that you are really able to win without the help of a lot of people both large and small. In terms of a story, your story is really only as good as others deem it to be. For a long time I had zero confidence as a writer. I'd tried to go back to an old fandom and found out you truly can't go home again. I was treated as an old fossil, had my writing ripped apart, and made to feel I was encroaching on a private kliquey group. Then I landed in the 'Haven. I was made to feel a part of it right away from Day One. Im humbled and honored to have had my writings chosen to represent 3 categories for the preceding year. It is also a challenge to keep on.