AU Muses December Topic - Tell Me a Secret

[hufflechamp]

My secret? It's not what you think. Being bisexual isn't my secret. The fact that Harry Potter and Luna Lovegood are two of the most important people in my life, that's not my secret either. My love for them isn't a secret. No, I don't discuss it with just anyone but it's not because they're my secret but because somethings are just too much important perfect beautiful scarybig to talk about.

I'm afraid. That's my secret. That's what I try and keep from everyone, Harry and Luna especially. I don't want to let my father down. I don't want to let Harry down or Luna, or my house, my school, myself. The challenges for the Tournament scare me because I know they're a test of everything I've learned, everything I know and everything I am. If I fail what am I?

I'm afraid of Voldemort. I'm afraid for Harry and the things he doesn't talk about because he can't talk about them. I'm afraid of what's coming and what it means for the boy I love. I'm afraid I won't be able to protect him. But mostly I'm afraid because I know the truth - I can't stop what's building. I can't make it all go away.

I'm afraid when the time comes I'll fail.

But that'll just be our secret. Okay?

Cedric Diggory
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