Hurricane Day... again
WTF!? I swear Mother Nature and God decided that they wanted to harass the hell outta florida and cause billions of dollars worth of damage. Luckily most everyone I know has had good luck through the storms, and so have I. Actually.. I'm kind of happy for them.. but mad too. I'm mad cause of all the school we're missing. We now have a week to catch up on.. and thats, like, a month's worth of work, cause of our schedules.. so this'll be thrilling. (Why couldn't they wait a year?) Anywho.. the upside? Lots of time to talk to Ajay. And I've revealed alot about myself I never noticed. The entire time I was dating Dustin.. I knew I loved him.. but.. I never really felt that he loved me.. like.. I knew he did, but I didn't feel it. And I realized the other day.. and when I realized this I started crying.. that Ajay is the first.. and only person, that I've ever felt really.. truly loved me. Like.. not family love.. but.. like... love love.. and I realized that.. I really really really love him. Like.. more than anyone before. More than Dustin. More than I ever thought possible. Every day I find a new reason to love him and I don't think it'll ever stop. And I don't want it to. *sighs* Ok.. please don't think I'm a freak.. but.. I wanna say something.. and only a few people actually know about it.. Well, ok.. its hard to explain. You know how some people just.. know things.. for like.. no appearant reason? Well.. I'm one of those people. Its kind of freaky. Like.. my friend didn't believe me, so he said what number am i thinking of between one and one hundred.. and i guessed it.. and i was exactly right. Another time.. another friend couldn't find his retainer.. I told him to look between his matresses and it was there.. and I had never been in his room and i didn't know he had a retainer. Well, anywho. My point.. For some reason.. I knew I was gonna fall asleep with ajay.. and I knew I'd date him.. and well.. those have both been right.. and I know I'm going to be with him forever... I love him so much... I hope I'm right about this. Well I'm gonna go.. before, I, like, cry again.