how have i been? lets just see....
well the last time i wrote in here i had ust paid off my ticket and since then i guess everything have been "ok." Just the same old crap. Just been feeling like shit latly. but its no big deal. im used to it. this whole senior year is just making me really just want to get younger, its made me realize quite a few things like the future, as in college, and my wonderful girlfriend who i hope to be with for a very long time. Shes sleeping right now and shes going to get all upset when she reads this but i swear tracy i have just be thinking of it as of the last few minutes. To me it just seems like shes not happy to be around me anymore.... like she used to be. this year i have done alot of growing up and its really affecting my mood. I have been nring down everyone around me and im to the point where its frustrating. i just wish for one week i culd just let go and be a kid again, but then i bring myself back from doing so by doing some school work or by going to work. i hate spending time apart from tracy. it jsut eats me up inside. Also i have been so tight with money. i have such a debt that i dont think i will ever be able to repay... well not for a while anyway. I owe the pops like $150, i owe my mom like $50, i owe Tracy $100, and i need car insurance and shit like that. well i will write later.