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Perhaps, it is only when things are near its end, that u start to reflect upon it, that u start to truly apprieciate it... 东西，要失去了，才懂得珍惜。。。 This year is like the concluding year for a lot of things... for a stable sch life... for my art... for jc... for a lvls... Starting from next yr, it'll be a plunge into the unknown... its only when u realise that such things are gonna disappear, then u start realising that things u take for granted are actually not so.... Last saturaday, i started on what i think would be my last painting... the beginning of the end... And i realised why i am so reluctant to start mugging for A's... for the same reason, the minute i start mugging, it signifies the starting of the end of my jc life... and only when im going to be thrust into the unknown, i began to apprieciate the stability and constancy of jc life... Although i do not resist or resent change, and yet change is something i have never learnt to be comfortable with... I never felt at ease in a new environment, i never converse openly wif strangers... I tend to keep within my boundaries, within my circle... and yet... now i realise that this circle will soon disappear.... University applications are gonna begin soon... and yet i still cant decide where to apply to... i havent even decided what i want to study or what i want to do in future.... In fact, i havent even decided where i want to spend the rest of my life after uni... Suddenly, i realised i dun feel ready to step out into the future... It is not fear that holds me back... but rather a desire to mantain the status quo... Sigh.... Perhaps, im slipping into denial... but no matter what i do, the end of my life as it is is approaching, with each passing day....