so my teeth or my life
I dunno whats wrong with me.
I got fired about a month ago.. It seems I can't talk about goin to gay bars, or the gay pride parade at work. There is hidden sexual harrasment there.
I'm not happy. Dunno why. Marcus tried to convice me of love, i explained to him, love doesnt exist, its a fake thing that married people tell themselve's so they don't kill each other. I had one excurision with a str8 boy in the last 9 months. That was only another reminder.
I went to bryans. Hung out, but you know company and James go bad after 3 days. So it was time to go!
Saw Superman Returns. Finally. It was good. I dunno why all the str8'ys were bitchin about superman havin a kid. geezus christ. We are supposed to be fruitful and multiply. Why the negativity? Speakin of Geezus... Why is it that people who claim to have the 'christmas spirit' are assholes the other 364 days(ish) out of the year? Like christmas spirit is this thing that makes you a nice person for a month and the rest of the year an complete butthead. Why is that? Why can't people be nice year round? Never mind. Thats askin waaaaay to much! I am so tired of fake niceness. If I dont like you, I dont pretend. Take my brother for example. I am short and to the point with him. If I was any other way, I would be fake. I don't wanna be that person. Not for his, or anyone elses sake for that matter!
In other worlds..
Parents told me they were broke for Christmas. I told them I want new bed pillows. I got 2 synthetic down pillows, a pair of slippers a waterpick and monster cables for my Ipod (So I can play it on anyones tv I want too) Yay hurray! I didnt want anything but a 20 dollar pillow from walmart. Anything else was unexpected.
I Bought a playstation before I got fired. Completely love Final Fantasy XII but its not as much fun as FFVII. (You know, the one game where Jordan had this dream where I was too lazy to shit in the toilet, instead, I shit in pizza boxes?) anyway. Its fun but I already fucked up. The best sword in the game you can get, you can only get if you dont open certain 'treasure chests'. Well, I opened all of em' cause I'm a whore like that! Also bought Katamari Damacy, Star Wars Lego I and II. But those games are way more fun when you actually play with someone else. I have no one.
Last weekend Chad invited me over for the weekend, because he had gotten a 'sports injury/hernia' and I was tired of being at my parents.
He called. Practically begged me to come over. I called him friday... It's like Lent allllll over again. No call, no answer, no nothing..
So Marcus came over, however, he moved away on thursday.. Bastard!! He thinks he's all ready for Philadelphia Penn. I think he'll be back. Whatever makes my friends happy. I can't do it for them. Hell who knows? Maybe I belong in San Franscisco. (I'm not goin, BUT?! What if?)
Love the Waterpik. Its a constant reminder that my teeth are on their way to falling out. Fun...
I wish I was lookin for a man. But men suck. I could love a str8 man, but we all know how that turns out....
BTW I found my best friends boyfriends twin at a bar 2 days ago. Turns out this guy is a bigger asshole than Chris could ever dream to be... Gotta love str8 guys. Bastards...
Best friend finally either forgiven me, or feigned forgivenss. I missed her. Have had stuff of hers for MONTHS and she wouldnt reply to my text messages. Maybe I deserved it, but significant holidays are just other days in my book. If its made up to you, great, if not, maybe next year. and if not then, does it really doesnt change years of expirence you have with someone.. does it?
I made a whole lot of bad decisions during the weeks that is known as her birthday. None of which really had to with her. It had to do with me.. (Which might explain why I am still single.. but thats another post. Besides, men suck. Don't put faith in your significant other my friend. You'll only be let down. Faith in yerself??.. biglongsigh..)
I got fired about a month ago.. It seems I can't talk about goin to gay bars, or the gay pride parade at work. There is hidden sexual harrasment there.
I'm not happy. Dunno why. Marcus tried to convice me of love, i explained to him, love doesnt exist, its a fake thing that married people tell themselve's so they don't kill each other. I had one excurision with a str8 boy in the last 9 months. That was only another reminder.
I went to bryans. Hung out, but you know company and James go bad after 3 days. So it was time to go!
Saw Superman Returns. Finally. It was good. I dunno why all the str8'ys were bitchin about superman havin a kid. geezus christ. We are supposed to be fruitful and multiply. Why the negativity? Speakin of Geezus... Why is it that people who claim to have the 'christmas spirit' are assholes the other 364 days(ish) out of the year? Like christmas spirit is this thing that makes you a nice person for a month and the rest of the year an complete butthead. Why is that? Why can't people be nice year round? Never mind. Thats askin waaaaay to much! I am so tired of fake niceness. If I dont like you, I dont pretend. Take my brother for example. I am short and to the point with him. If I was any other way, I would be fake. I don't wanna be that person. Not for his, or anyone elses sake for that matter!
In other worlds..
Parents told me they were broke for Christmas. I told them I want new bed pillows. I got 2 synthetic down pillows, a pair of slippers a waterpick and monster cables for my Ipod (So I can play it on anyones tv I want too) Yay hurray! I didnt want anything but a 20 dollar pillow from walmart. Anything else was unexpected.
I Bought a playstation before I got fired. Completely love Final Fantasy XII but its not as much fun as FFVII. (You know, the one game where Jordan had this dream where I was too lazy to shit in the toilet, instead, I shit in pizza boxes?) anyway. Its fun but I already fucked up. The best sword in the game you can get, you can only get if you dont open certain 'treasure chests'. Well, I opened all of em' cause I'm a whore like that! Also bought Katamari Damacy, Star Wars Lego I and II. But those games are way more fun when you actually play with someone else. I have no one.
Last weekend Chad invited me over for the weekend, because he had gotten a 'sports injury/hernia' and I was tired of being at my parents.
He called. Practically begged me to come over. I called him friday... It's like Lent allllll over again. No call, no answer, no nothing..
So Marcus came over, however, he moved away on thursday.. Bastard!! He thinks he's all ready for Philadelphia Penn. I think he'll be back. Whatever makes my friends happy. I can't do it for them. Hell who knows? Maybe I belong in San Franscisco. (I'm not goin, BUT?! What if?)
Love the Waterpik. Its a constant reminder that my teeth are on their way to falling out. Fun...
I wish I was lookin for a man. But men suck. I could love a str8 man, but we all know how that turns out....
BTW I found my best friends boyfriends twin at a bar 2 days ago. Turns out this guy is a bigger asshole than Chris could ever dream to be... Gotta love str8 guys. Bastards...
Best friend finally either forgiven me, or feigned forgivenss. I missed her. Have had stuff of hers for MONTHS and she wouldnt reply to my text messages. Maybe I deserved it, but significant holidays are just other days in my book. If its made up to you, great, if not, maybe next year. and if not then, does it really doesnt change years of expirence you have with someone.. does it?
I made a whole lot of bad decisions during the weeks that is known as her birthday. None of which really had to with her. It had to do with me.. (Which might explain why I am still single.. but thats another post. Besides, men suck. Don't put faith in your significant other my friend. You'll only be let down. Faith in yerself??.. biglongsigh..)