Here we stand, about to dive...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her."
--Thanks, Erin!!!
I'll admit, I'm in a bad mood right now. This weekend was fabulous - yay for getting to hang out with my Yo's again!!! But now they're on their way back to the 'Burg and I'm sad. I'm sad that they're gone, I'm sad that things aren't the same anymore (no more Hellooooo State College! or drunken nights in my amazing corner apartment), I'm sad that I'm growing up... We talked about some situations/people that haven't really been discussed since I was home for Pat & Kristen's wedding, and it opened up a can of worms that I thought I had sealed for good. Suddenly, I feel like I've been thrown back in time and I'm 3,000 miles away awaiting a much-needed marathon phone call from my two favorite boys, the ones who always knew just the right time to call. Somehow the girls and I were discussing this and I got to reminiscing (something I know I shouldn't do) about how many calling cards we used up and just how much I cherish those memories...why can't I just let it go? (If you can't understand why I need to let go, give me one weekend and I will make you understand...all I need is one weekend and it will all make sense.)
Right now I'm in the process of trying to convince myself that I'm just stressed and burned-out... I'm trying to buy into the idea that THAT is what is causing me to feel sad and angry, not the idea that "...I feel like I'm missing a part of myself." I want a hug. I miss my parents. I'm such a mess.
But, on a funnier note...Liz and Tara had some interesting "free samples" sent to me in the mail...LOL! Use your imagination, we were in rare form yesterday!!! :)
--Thanks, Erin!!!
I'll admit, I'm in a bad mood right now. This weekend was fabulous - yay for getting to hang out with my Yo's again!!! But now they're on their way back to the 'Burg and I'm sad. I'm sad that they're gone, I'm sad that things aren't the same anymore (no more Hellooooo State College! or drunken nights in my amazing corner apartment), I'm sad that I'm growing up... We talked about some situations/people that haven't really been discussed since I was home for Pat & Kristen's wedding, and it opened up a can of worms that I thought I had sealed for good. Suddenly, I feel like I've been thrown back in time and I'm 3,000 miles away awaiting a much-needed marathon phone call from my two favorite boys, the ones who always knew just the right time to call. Somehow the girls and I were discussing this and I got to reminiscing (something I know I shouldn't do) about how many calling cards we used up and just how much I cherish those memories...why can't I just let it go? (If you can't understand why I need to let go, give me one weekend and I will make you understand...all I need is one weekend and it will all make sense.)
Right now I'm in the process of trying to convince myself that I'm just stressed and burned-out... I'm trying to buy into the idea that THAT is what is causing me to feel sad and angry, not the idea that "...I feel like I'm missing a part of myself." I want a hug. I miss my parents. I'm such a mess.
But, on a funnier note...Liz and Tara had some interesting "free samples" sent to me in the mail...LOL! Use your imagination, we were in rare form yesterday!!! :)