...its getting better all the time...*brooke and dunn*

[htkrissybabe]

so just a random post. today was good! yet i'm sitting here wanting to cry. and for the first time in..i cant even tell you how long..tears are running down my face. WHY??? i dont fucking understand. i am sooo over you..i have an amazing guy that adores me! you were an asshole...so why am i doing this to myself right now? why did you have such an impact on my life..and why did you have to make it negative. one little comment brings back reminders of this and that and i cant stand it. i want to forget everything...yes, EVERYTHING. i want to enjoy my time with someone who will treat me good..is honest..cares...etc. and i am...yet i'm sitting here crying OVER YOU. fuck that. fuck you for that. still. wow...i wish somebody understood for 2 seconds. just 2 seconds. but u wont. pictures in my mind are worth the screams. because thats all i want to do. i want to scream out all my anger. yes, i am over you. i know i am. so why months later does this shit still bother me? i just want answers.

believe it or not, i am having the time of my life right now. i dont want to forget any of it. making amazing new friends and rekindling the amazing ones from the past.

going to be a busy week ahead of me. pulling an all nighter tomorrow.

ps. deaf in the left ear. thanks a lot.

saturday kayla is making dinner for her boy, me and my boy. double date at home..how cute.

seriously, your not any cooler than anoybody, INCLUDING me. its just a number. get over yourself.
i miss ricki. =(
work in 6 hrs..for 11 hours. how exciting.

my sunburn needs its' sleep.
night.