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i understand that there are friends which you are closer to and such. but please, don't be shallow and think that you can have a backup line of friends. don't think that you can push people away and they will come back when your "friends" have left you. i never thought you would be one to choose friends because of "coolness". if i'm reading you wrong, fine. if you're tired of me, understandable. but if that's the case, just push me away in all circumstances or just let me walk away. don't give me hope or uncertainty. or if you really want me to hide in the shadows when you hang out with your "cool" friends, that's fine. just tell me. i can learn to live in the shadows if it means i'll still be there. the key is to talk. i cannot stand it when people shy away from speaking.