Conversations
I really enjoy living in my apartment with my roomie. We have a good time and I like having someone to share all my experiences with. I always have someone to run home to and tell all about the day's events. It makes me happy.
Anyway, Myndi and I were chatting today about my love life or the lack there of. She is very curious about my dating situation at the moment. It's funny because I am dating or hanging out or interested in this guy who is totally giving me the run around. I have been trying to break it off with him, but I think he's trying to just ignore me. (BTW, thats really cheap) Myndi told me that she has never dated anyone who didn't want a relationship with her. She's never dated anyone who just wanted to date around. Can you believe she has never heard, "I don't want a girlfriend." WTF! How did she get so damn lucky? I feel like thats all I hear anymore. I am not trying to just run out there and get a boyfriend all the time, but, in my eyes, when you like someone then you have a relationship with them. I sometimes sit and wonder what is wrong with me that no one wants to be my boyfriend. Have I done something wrong? Do I say the wrong things? Am I an embarrassment? WHERE HAVE I GONE WRONG AGAIN!!
Perhaps I am dwelling on this too much. I just needed to vent because I am getting so worn out. All of this is taking such a toll on my self-confidence.
P.S. To make matters worse, I am losing horribly to Squirmy in fantasy baseball!!
Anyway, Myndi and I were chatting today about my love life or the lack there of. She is very curious about my dating situation at the moment. It's funny because I am dating or hanging out or interested in this guy who is totally giving me the run around. I have been trying to break it off with him, but I think he's trying to just ignore me. (BTW, thats really cheap) Myndi told me that she has never dated anyone who didn't want a relationship with her. She's never dated anyone who just wanted to date around. Can you believe she has never heard, "I don't want a girlfriend." WTF! How did she get so damn lucky? I feel like thats all I hear anymore. I am not trying to just run out there and get a boyfriend all the time, but, in my eyes, when you like someone then you have a relationship with them. I sometimes sit and wonder what is wrong with me that no one wants to be my boyfriend. Have I done something wrong? Do I say the wrong things? Am I an embarrassment? WHERE HAVE I GONE WRONG AGAIN!!
Perhaps I am dwelling on this too much. I just needed to vent because I am getting so worn out. All of this is taking such a toll on my self-confidence.
P.S. To make matters worse, I am losing horribly to Squirmy in fantasy baseball!!