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I'm starting to get really excited about the wedding. I'm really scared at the same time, though! It's so hard for me, because I just want everything to be just right - to be perfect. I'm trying to manage doing that, and staying sane at the same time.
Today my mom, aunt and grandma went to look for a dress for my mom to wear to the wedding. My mom looked really cute in some of the dresses that she tried on. I think she's going to look fantastic that day. It's things like this that are what is making me really excited.
I've decided that I think that I want to have live musicians playing for the ceremony. Since it is outdoor, I'm not sure of what other options I have. I can't really have a CD playing - how do you start and stop the music for each song that needs to be playing, without it sounding jerky or just wrong? So, if anybody knows of people who play live (like a string trio or quartet) for weddings and will do it fairly cheaply, please let me know!!!
On another note, when it is time to lay a friendship to rest? When is it time to realize that the friendship that you once had just isn't there anymore? That's she's somebody that you will always regard as a friend. but she's just somehow slipped away from you.
I just feel like I'm in a situation where I'm like a guy who just can't get the hint that a girl doesn't want to go out on a date with him. No matter how many times I try to ask her out, there's always a reason why she can't go out with me. I think it's just time for me to stop asking all together. I just don't think I can be rejected anymore.
And, on a completely separate note - Lost starts again tonight! I'm super excited about that. I hope that this season is really awesome, a little better than last season.