One step forward, two steps back.
As much as I was positive that yesterday was going to suck, and with as bad as it started out, it ended up pretty damn good, or at least I think so. I realized a lot of things when I was talking on the phone to one of my friends. I've always been so upset when I feel like I'm digressing and making negative progress, but it is progress. Retracing your steps can be a very good thing. You can back and say what you wanted to the first time around and couldn't or just didn't. You can do all the things you were to afraid to originally, and you have nothing to lose cause you have already fucked up once. So I guess what I'm saying is the only thing I have to be afraid of is standing still and not going anywhere. Retracing my steps may prove to be one of the luckiest opportunities that has ever presented itself. I get a second chance. And that's something everyone could use. I guess what I mean is take what you can get, and just appreciate everything you do get instead of wishing it was more. I'm sure this all would sound so much more profound if you know the specific situation I was speaking of, but since you don't, just think about it. This is probably the best philosophy to live by, and it makes me a much happier person.
Three things that scare me:
1: Being alone.
2: Going blind or deaf.
3: Being paralyzed.
Three people who make me laugh:
1: Brooke and Stacey.
2: Chris.
3: Alyssa.
Three Things I love:
1: Music.
2: That damn good bagel I had this morning.
3: My few true friends.
Three Things I hate:
1: Mixed signals.
2: Being ditched.
3: Rejection.
Three things I don't understand:
1: Love.
2: People in general.
3: The world.
Three things on my desk:
1: Pez.
2: Phone.
3: Alarm clock.
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: Typing this.
2: Thinking about that conversation last night.
3: Dreading tomorrow.
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: Fall in love.
2: Have sex on the lockers at school.
3: Learn how to play guitar.
Three things I can do:
1: Pop the bone in my foot out. Gross.
2: Roll my tongue both ways.
3: Wiggle my ears.
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: Depressive.
2: Cynical.
3: Hopeless Romantic.
Three things I can't do:
1: Express myself appropriately.
2: Say what I mean.
3: Fix things for everyone like I’m expected.
I think for once in my life I'm not going to get screwed over. I guess God is trying to make up for all the things that have gone HORRIBLY wrong in the last 15 years. I'm hopeful, and that's a beautiful thing.
Three things that scare me:
1: Being alone.
2: Going blind or deaf.
3: Being paralyzed.
Three people who make me laugh:
1: Brooke and Stacey.
2: Chris.
3: Alyssa.
Three Things I love:
1: Music.
2: That damn good bagel I had this morning.
3: My few true friends.
Three Things I hate:
1: Mixed signals.
2: Being ditched.
3: Rejection.
Three things I don't understand:
1: Love.
2: People in general.
3: The world.
Three things on my desk:
1: Pez.
2: Phone.
3: Alarm clock.
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: Typing this.
2: Thinking about that conversation last night.
3: Dreading tomorrow.
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: Fall in love.
2: Have sex on the lockers at school.
3: Learn how to play guitar.
Three things I can do:
1: Pop the bone in my foot out. Gross.
2: Roll my tongue both ways.
3: Wiggle my ears.
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: Depressive.
2: Cynical.
3: Hopeless Romantic.
Three things I can't do:
1: Express myself appropriately.
2: Say what I mean.
3: Fix things for everyone like I’m expected.
I think for once in my life I'm not going to get screwed over. I guess God is trying to make up for all the things that have gone HORRIBLY wrong in the last 15 years. I'm hopeful, and that's a beautiful thing.