the un-joys of the un-attached, un-young un-hetrosexual
...no one to hold hands with.
...no one to cuddle up with on a dark and stormy night.
...no one to snuggle up and watch old movies on TV with.
...no one to call up in the middle of the afternoon and ask "What should I make for dinner tonight?"
...no one to be able to say "Honey, I'm home" to.
...no one to to be able to discuss how good or bad the movie/play/concert you just together was.
...no one to dish the dirt with..."can you believe she wore that?", "can you believe how drunk he was?"
...no one to kiss goodnight to when you turn out the lights.
I went to a big wedding reception this weekend. Everyone was there. A very large contingent of the local theatre crowd was represented. Most came with someone. I came alone. As I usually do. I have no date to being. Not even anyone to just drag along with me. So although there were lots of people there I knew, I felt more alone than usual. Oh, the conversation was good and the company was friendly, but I was constantly reminded that I was there by myself. Oh there were a few others who came without guests, but they all were much younger than me. When you're my age and alone it's usually because you are divorced, or widowed or an old maid. (Guess where I fall in.) I don't like going places alone or being the 5th-wheel either. Just once I'ld like to be able to bring a date along to some function. Unfortunately, there are no dates to be had. And I'm not going to find any, it seems. Sometimes I wonder why I'm not loveable in that way? I have lots of love to give someone. Why isn't there anyone to accept it?
So I have to ask "can I call myself a homosexual if there's no one to be a homosexual with?"