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not sleepy
ah, lies.. i'm sleepy as hell.. and have been since midnight...
it was an unusually long day...
but it's just one of those times i don't want to sleep.. yet i know i should.. because tomorrow i'll be groggy and grumpy as hell and pissed off because i missed half the day by waking up so late... then i'll probably miss lunch, so i have to resort to Bruin Cafe's ham and swiss sandwhich again (the only edible sandwhich at b. cafe) or do what i did today and skip lunch all together (because it's almost guaranteed i'll eat dinner at 5-5:30 ish everynight because of work, so i don't want to eat lunch too late).
so....
i wonder what i did in my past life to deserve such a fate that i enjoy right now. well, i guess it isn't all bad. i'm sure it can be worse. but i can honestly say that the craziness i enjoyed the early part of summer was a result of stress rather than loneliness. Still lonely, but no sign of craziness, even in light of the same problematic situations i faced with earlier. Still, i wish things were easier. I wish things were better. heh, better...
truth is.. i think things are better.. things were just so craptacular before that better is still crappy. (better better better..........) but, a small step forwards is always better than any large step in the wrong direction. (bbbbbeeetttttttttttttttttttttttter)
ahhhhhhhhh.. i'm tired.
i'll sleep on it.
ah, lies.. i'm sleepy as hell.. and have been since midnight...
it was an unusually long day...
but it's just one of those times i don't want to sleep.. yet i know i should.. because tomorrow i'll be groggy and grumpy as hell and pissed off because i missed half the day by waking up so late... then i'll probably miss lunch, so i have to resort to Bruin Cafe's ham and swiss sandwhich again (the only edible sandwhich at b. cafe) or do what i did today and skip lunch all together (because it's almost guaranteed i'll eat dinner at 5-5:30 ish everynight because of work, so i don't want to eat lunch too late).
so....
i wonder what i did in my past life to deserve such a fate that i enjoy right now. well, i guess it isn't all bad. i'm sure it can be worse. but i can honestly say that the craziness i enjoyed the early part of summer was a result of stress rather than loneliness. Still lonely, but no sign of craziness, even in light of the same problematic situations i faced with earlier. Still, i wish things were easier. I wish things were better. heh, better...
truth is.. i think things are better.. things were just so craptacular before that better is still crappy. (better better better..........) but, a small step forwards is always better than any large step in the wrong direction. (bbbbbeeetttttttttttttttttttttttter)
ahhhhhhhhh.. i'm tired.
i'll sleep on it.