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I'm so rediculous!
I have a huge paper to writ and a huge test on Tuesday and I haven't studied at all!
I'm already failing out and yet I just sit and watch my life fall apart.
On a positive note I got accepted to the PA waiting room and everyone is soo nice!
I really hope I get into the ProANA community.
I love reading their posts and they really help me a lot.
I have lost 14 lbs just watching and I bet I could loose a lot more now that I am an active member.
It just makes me really happy!
No one has noticed my wrist yet and I doubt they will.
I notice Soumil glancing at it but he never asks.
They still all joke about it.
Is that how they avoid they the situation?
Nick especially makes the jokes.
I thought for sure he would notice last night when we were watching movies.
I really like him and just wish he liked me too.
Sometimes I think he might but other times he is just an ass!
I just want him to hold me.
Everyone else on my floor hugs me and he shows no affection.
Is he shy like me?
I don't hug him because I like him and I don't want to freak him out.
Also, I think I might like Evan too.
He's not my type at all and he was one of my best friends here but now I can't trust him.
All my problems come from Jamie.
I deleted her as my friend on facebook and then she tries to add me again.
She is soo fake and I don't want to be associated with her!
Grrrr
Everyone likes her just because she is skinny.
I know thats the reason because she is lazy and selfish and stupid.
She has absolutely no personality.
I WILL BE SKINNY TOO!
That way I can be loved too.
Thats all it takes to be loved.
SKINNY!