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I don't know what to do..... i'm so scared right now... scared that i might lose her.... she's been in the hospital since friday and at first it was just blood clots... then they found something in her liver... and next in her colon.... it was supposed to just be blood clots but now it might be cancer..... i want to go see her and be with her but i can't. everytime i go to the hospital my mind starts going and i get anxiety attacks.... so bad that i'm constantly leaving the room so that they don't see it... it's fucking hard.... to see her like this. and to not be able to be as good as a son as i want to be. i just don't know anymore.....