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so yeah.. it's getting harder and harder to not call her now... I was on campus the other day because I had to get some stuff and I dropped Andrew off at Finch which meant I drove past Millis... Why do I keep tormenting myself over it all???? I have fought over calling her so much, I even have reasons to call her, but I thought I had deleted her number so I couldn't call.. Found out last night that I hadn't actually deleted it though when I was trying to get in touch with some people to hang out. It took everything in me, but I deleted it then. I know she is probably so much better off now that things are over between us. I don't want to call her and then just put us back in the same situation that we were before. That would be so selfish of me to do to her. I am really proud of myself for trying to stick with this. I mean it's hard to be single for me... I am not used to it. I have had girls flirt with me and want to hang out with me on that level, but I have held out. I am actually doing really well.... When I am finally ready to be in a relationship I want to take it slow. Unlike all of the times before. I am really working hard this time.. I just hope it pans out in the end...