fuck it.
Whats the point in life... i dont have one, thats for sure.. i m just a waste of time and breath. dont bother talking to me. if you get attached ill probably just hurt you. dont come near me, im liable to just be a general dick to you. if you think you like me ill do a 180 so that i make you hate me. right when everything in life is okay, ill make it a disaster. when life throws me lemons i shit myself and wonder where life got a lemon. i just dont understand myself. i dont understand humans. i dont understand feelings.. nothing makes sense anymore.. i dont really feel a reason to live.. how can you pretend to love someone.. how can you lead them on and then just hurt them.. i dont understand that.. just not being honest, with the one person you should be.. i mean.. is that too much to ask of someone you love. life just.. sucks.. with out you i have no motivation, no will no power to continue.. nothing left.. just a shell.. no reason to carry on.. just die.. not that my death would really affect anyone... Well.. life is shitty. who cares.. i should just move on right? god how i wish it was that easy...i wish life was easy.. i wish death was easy.. there is nothing easy for me.