It has been a loooong time
Ok so it was brought to my attention that I haven't wrote a post in a long time so I thought what the hell I might as well update!
What has happened:
1. First semester at GVSU a 3.3 GPA
2. Had a really great Christmas! With family, friends and ESPECIALLY Megan!!!!!!!
3. Had an ok New Years...but it wasn't horrible
4. New semester is horrible!
5. Last semester at GVSU
OK now to elaborate on the events especially the last two. So I know I have mentioned this before but I really don't like it up here so I am not going back next year. (not a shocker)Although that isn't to say all was lost up here. I definitely learned a lot about what I want and where my priorities in life are right now. I learned that I like my family and I like being around them. I learned that I miss my brother and hate not spending time with him and the most important thing I learned was how important Megan is to me and my life.
It doesn't make any sense to spend anymore time away from her. I come home every weekend, yet I still want more. I want Christmas break again, when I could see her everyday and saying goodbye at the end of the night wasn't so hard because I knew she was only 10-15 minutes away from me at any moment.
I also miss bringing her lunch, helping her with her things and just physically being there for her. So I'm moving back home in May and staying home until I graduate and land a job.
Now where am I going to school? Well, going to go to Western (*sigh* yes I know) to finish my degree which I should *cross fingers* be able to do in one year (plus a summer class or two if things get hairy). Ideally I would LOVE to be done with my degree as Megan graduates because that would make things a ton easier.
There just has been a lot of things that I miss with her. Like this week for example, she is thinking strongly about buying another horse to train and when she talks about it she gets so excited and I just wish I could be there to see it! Be there to support it! I want to be that loving, supportive, caring boyfriend.
I want to be home to spend my free time helping her fix up the barn (which everytime I see it bothers me lol my perfectionist/workalcoholic side coming out) and just getting things around the way she wants and needs them to be so she can be successful and happy.
Megan is so wonderful and I just feel I can't be everything to her up here. I feel restricted in what I can do and I feel like I am only giving 50% effort so it is important for me to give everything I have and not feel restricted.
On some last notes, moving back would make a lot of people happy (including me) such as my Dad who never wanted me to leave in the first place and although he would NEVER tell me, misses me a lot. Also my brother who also wouldn't tell me but misses me just as much. My mom...she misses me but she is so different from me, she is a semi-extrovert and is semi-free spirit so she doesn't get how I can love routine, structure and tradition! lol! Finally, I would think I could find a job a lot easier in Battle Creek than in Allendale. So here's to 12 more weeks (not including spring break) up here.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?
I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.
What has happened:
1. First semester at GVSU a 3.3 GPA
2. Had a really great Christmas! With family, friends and ESPECIALLY Megan!!!!!!!
3. Had an ok New Years...but it wasn't horrible
4. New semester is horrible!
5. Last semester at GVSU
OK now to elaborate on the events especially the last two. So I know I have mentioned this before but I really don't like it up here so I am not going back next year. (not a shocker)Although that isn't to say all was lost up here. I definitely learned a lot about what I want and where my priorities in life are right now. I learned that I like my family and I like being around them. I learned that I miss my brother and hate not spending time with him and the most important thing I learned was how important Megan is to me and my life.
It doesn't make any sense to spend anymore time away from her. I come home every weekend, yet I still want more. I want Christmas break again, when I could see her everyday and saying goodbye at the end of the night wasn't so hard because I knew she was only 10-15 minutes away from me at any moment.
I also miss bringing her lunch, helping her with her things and just physically being there for her. So I'm moving back home in May and staying home until I graduate and land a job.
Now where am I going to school? Well, going to go to Western (*sigh* yes I know) to finish my degree which I should *cross fingers* be able to do in one year (plus a summer class or two if things get hairy). Ideally I would LOVE to be done with my degree as Megan graduates because that would make things a ton easier.
There just has been a lot of things that I miss with her. Like this week for example, she is thinking strongly about buying another horse to train and when she talks about it she gets so excited and I just wish I could be there to see it! Be there to support it! I want to be that loving, supportive, caring boyfriend.
I want to be home to spend my free time helping her fix up the barn (which everytime I see it bothers me lol my perfectionist/workalcoholic side coming out) and just getting things around the way she wants and needs them to be so she can be successful and happy.
Megan is so wonderful and I just feel I can't be everything to her up here. I feel restricted in what I can do and I feel like I am only giving 50% effort so it is important for me to give everything I have and not feel restricted.
On some last notes, moving back would make a lot of people happy (including me) such as my Dad who never wanted me to leave in the first place and although he would NEVER tell me, misses me a lot. Also my brother who also wouldn't tell me but misses me just as much. My mom...she misses me but she is so different from me, she is a semi-extrovert and is semi-free spirit so she doesn't get how I can love routine, structure and tradition! lol! Finally, I would think I could find a job a lot easier in Battle Creek than in Allendale. So here's to 12 more weeks (not including spring break) up here.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?
I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.