psychological question?

[hpbear149]

one other thing that maybe is hampering me all around but I just wonder how I combat it.....

when I'm doing the following, i can can do it without hesitation:

• when an outbreak or a major storm occurs I can forecast it like no tomorrow
• I can work taking orders without an issue
• push myself above and beyond what should be my limit to professional situations where i am overburdened and just find a way to get things done even when physically or mentally i shouldn't be able
• care about my family and friends like no tomorrow
• survive in the big city when others fear for their own safety
• help others almost to a fault

but by the same token I have trouble with the following:

• general trouble making crucial decisions about my own life track without thinking too much and screw myself out of opportunities or making it harder on myself than it should be
• can't care about my own self without feeling guilty for being a selfish person, even when it's supposed to be a selfish moment
• until recently i couldn't say no to charity
• have trouble whenever in a manager role because i see everyone's bright side too easily or maybe have too long a fuse
• and at times after totally shutting down any emotion in toronto, now i am fighting to keep my emotions under control
• generally scared at times not knowing what to do when not in a group setting
• forgetful more than a few times unless i have things written down

someone want to diagnose?