AIM Logs Severus/Alecto
Who? Severus Snape and Alecto Carrow
What? Remus Lupin is not the only one distracted by personal ghosts.
When? grownhp6words nowish.
Why? Because she finds it too amusing not to.
Author's Note: (stealing from r_moony!) This is all in Severus' head, so for mun knowledge only please and thank you!
Sev: Back off, Red. I've changed.
Alecto: Oh... you have, have you. ... how?
Sev: *quiet for a second too long* I'm not the same man I was. That's behind me now, everything.
Alecto: Some things you just never can escape. What do you *almost purring the word* think the difference is? What did you leave behind precisely?
Sev: *puts his hand over his brand* This. I'm not that boy anymore, fascinated with...destruction or your lessons. I'm not his anymore, or yours...I've paid for that...
Alecto: *lips thin out - in a smirk* Do you think things are that easy to ignore when they're part of you? Really, Severus. Just as Sebastian chooses to do something else, but cannot escape being our blood... so you can't truly escape either.
Though the effort is ... amusing.
Sev: No! I wasn't like you or Amycus. I wasn't- *shaking head* This wasn't me. This wasn't me. I was...I didn't...I didn't enjoy this. I could have never enjoyed this.
They were just lessons. They weren't me. Just...lessons.
Alecto: Of course you weren't like us. Nobody's like us. Just as nobody is like you. *leans closer and whispers in his ear* Your heart and mind were totally in it. Your creativity. Have you created a spell that wasn't ours?
Sev: ... *eyes shut, turning around and pushing away from her* I WASN'T YOURS!!!
...I was... *pale, shaking, rubbing his arms* just a boy. Foolish. That...spell...my spell...was...I...could...never...no.
Alecto: *throws her head back and laughs* I don't think I have seen you this confused since you were just a boy. Are you sure you are all right? Are you sure this 'change' is good for you?
Sev: *shutting his eyes, somewhere between quieting his heart and forcing himself to feel the fear...* ...I won't do this again. I can't do this again. I wasn't...that room, you...Amycus whatever l- love I had for you is gone. I made my choice. I left you behind. I couldn't before, but I can't and won't...want to be like you ever again. I've changed. I don't... *exhales*
Sev: *touches his forearm, trembling* I'm out of the room. I'm not that man anymore. I can't be.
Alecto: *pensively* Interesting. I thought you tried that when you attempted to 'protect' the brats from Amycus and me while we were teaching there. *meets his eyes* It didn't seem to stick, I think.
Sev: *...just goes numb, quiet heart* That was war. I made choices...difficult choices because I had to.
Alecto: If it makes you feel better. But - actions speak louder than words, Severus. You're stronger with us. You accomplish more. You learn more. And you fail when you try to stop us.
And you mean to try and leave that off? *amused. very.* I might leave you to it and drop by to see how it's going.
Sev: *touches his heart with his left hand for a split second, inhaling from the Mark's burning, and the fact he can't...seem to find it in him to rebuke her*
What? Remus Lupin is not the only one distracted by personal ghosts.
When? grownhp6words nowish.
Why? Because she finds it too amusing not to.
Author's Note: (stealing from r_moony!) This is all in Severus' head, so for mun knowledge only please and thank you!
Sev: Back off, Red. I've changed.
Alecto: Oh... you have, have you. ... how?
Sev: *quiet for a second too long* I'm not the same man I was. That's behind me now, everything.
Alecto: Some things you just never can escape. What do you *almost purring the word* think the difference is? What did you leave behind precisely?
Sev: *puts his hand over his brand* This. I'm not that boy anymore, fascinated with...destruction or your lessons. I'm not his anymore, or yours...I've paid for that...
Alecto: *lips thin out - in a smirk* Do you think things are that easy to ignore when they're part of you? Really, Severus. Just as Sebastian chooses to do something else, but cannot escape being our blood... so you can't truly escape either.
Though the effort is ... amusing.
Sev: No! I wasn't like you or Amycus. I wasn't- *shaking head* This wasn't me. This wasn't me. I was...I didn't...I didn't enjoy this. I could have never enjoyed this.
They were just lessons. They weren't me. Just...lessons.
Alecto: Of course you weren't like us. Nobody's like us. Just as nobody is like you. *leans closer and whispers in his ear* Your heart and mind were totally in it. Your creativity. Have you created a spell that wasn't ours?
Sev: ... *eyes shut, turning around and pushing away from her* I WASN'T YOURS!!!
...I was... *pale, shaking, rubbing his arms* just a boy. Foolish. That...spell...my spell...was...I...could...never...no.
Alecto: *throws her head back and laughs* I don't think I have seen you this confused since you were just a boy. Are you sure you are all right? Are you sure this 'change' is good for you?
Sev: *shutting his eyes, somewhere between quieting his heart and forcing himself to feel the fear...* ...I won't do this again. I can't do this again. I wasn't...that room, you...Amycus whatever l- love I had for you is gone. I made my choice. I left you behind. I couldn't before, but I can't and won't...want to be like you ever again. I've changed. I don't... *exhales*
Sev: *touches his forearm, trembling* I'm out of the room. I'm not that man anymore. I can't be.
Alecto: *pensively* Interesting. I thought you tried that when you attempted to 'protect' the brats from Amycus and me while we were teaching there. *meets his eyes* It didn't seem to stick, I think.
Sev: *...just goes numb, quiet heart* That was war. I made choices...difficult choices because I had to.
Alecto: If it makes you feel better. But - actions speak louder than words, Severus. You're stronger with us. You accomplish more. You learn more. And you fail when you try to stop us.
And you mean to try and leave that off? *amused. very.* I might leave you to it and drop by to see how it's going.
Sev: *touches his heart with his left hand for a split second, inhaling from the Mark's burning, and the fact he can't...seem to find it in him to rebuke her*