Hello
Title: Hello
Author: howXiXdisappear
Prompt: 07. Friend.
Pairing: Gerard Way/Frank Iero
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Hello. I want you. Even though you'll never want me back. You're not like me. You're not the way I am. You'll never be attracted to someone like me. Ever.
Disclaimer: Don't own. Don't sue.
Author Notes: I wrote and posted this about two years ago, but never posted it to my journal or anything, so I figured I'd reserect it. It's probably one of my favorites that I've written. Hope you like it too. :]
Hello.
I want you. Even though you'll never want me back. You're not like me. You're not the way I am. You'll never be attracted to someone like me. Ever.
Hello.
I love you. Even though you'll never feel the same. You never could. You're not like me. You'll never be. You'll never be the way I am. You could never love someone like me.
Hello.
You're the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on. But you don't know I think that. I can't ever tell you. You'll hate me. Because you're not like me. And you'll never be. No amount of wishing can make that change. You could never see someone like me the way I see you.
Hello.
You're the reason why I'm breathing. Even though I know I'm not your reason. You're not like me. You have her. She has you. You don't have even the slightest idea how much it hurts to see. To see the two of you together. To know. To know that there is no way this feeling will ever be mutual. I could never be the reason you're breathing.
Hello.
Don't you hear me anymore? You used to pay attention. You used to care. Why do you only go to her anymore? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? Am I invisible? Am I dead? Hello? You'll never be like me. But that's okay. It's okay. Please listen to me... I need you to hear me.
Hello?
I'm dying. I'm dying. I'm dying and you don't know. But that's okay. It's okay. Because I don't think you'd care. You have her. She has you. And you'll never be like me. But it's okay. I still love you. Just don't ignore me anymore. Please? I miss you.
Hello.
You talked to me today. You called me stupid. I know. I know. But it hurts. Everything hurts. Stop it. Please stop it. Don't yell. You make me hurt worse. Don't you understand that? You make me hurt so bad. I lied. I lied. I'm a liar. You'll never be like me. And it's not okay. It's not. It's not okay.
Hello.
Where are you? Why did you look at me like that? Why did you leave? You're going back to her, aren't you. You are. You are and I hate her for it. I don't hate you though. I never could hate you. Just don't make me hurt anymore. You'll never be like me. And I'm trying to deal with that. You'll never be the way I am. I understand...at least I'm trying...
Hello?
Come back! You're gone. You're gone. You're gone and I miss you. I need you. Help me. Come back. I hurt again. I don't know why. Why do I hurt so bad? I'm loosing it. It's not your fault though. It's hers. Don't blame yourself. Blame her. She's bad. She's bad. Evil. She wants to take you away from me...but I remember now, you never belonged to me. You'll never be like me. So I should stop wishing.
Hello...
This is awkward. I can't look at you. I can't look at the angry expression on your face. It hurts. I hurt. Make the hurting stop. I know. I know. I know I'm stupid. I know I need to stop this. No. I can't tell you why I do this. Stop asking me. Stop asking me if it's your fault. Do you want it to be? It can't be. It's mine. I shouldn't expect things to be happily ever after. Because you'll never be like me. You wouldn't understand.
Hello.
I'm not hurting right now. She's away for today. And it's just the two of us. I don't think I've smiled this much for so long. You know too. You tell me how nice it is to see me smile. It's nicer to see you smile though. Mine is not good. Mine is ugly. You're beautiful though. I wish I was beautiful like you. But I don't want to think about that right now. Today is a good day. Today I got you. I don't care about tomorrow right now. Today I can pretend that you're like me. Except for no kiss goodbye.
Hello.
I miss yesterday. I wish it could've ended the way I wanted it to. But that would only make today awkward. She's back again. She back and you're back to her. And I'm back to invisible. I'm sorry. Did I do something wrong yesterday? Did I say something out loud? I'm sorry. Please see me. Please hear me. Hello? I love you. But you can't love me back. You'll never be like me. You'll never love me back. Fine then. Don't hear me. I don't care...yes I do.
Hello?
I hurt again. I hurt and it won't go away. I can't stop screaming. I can't stop crying. You come. You're confused. You're scared. You're mad. No! I'm not going to stop! Fucking listen to me for once, dammit! You stare at me. I've never yelled at you before. I love you. I love you so much. Why can't you love me back?! I'm sobbing. I'm sobbing and telling you everything. But you'll never be like me. You say you are sorry. So so sorry. And you leave.
Hello...
Why did you come back? Why are your eyes red? Have you been crying? I'm sorry. It's my fault. I'll go away. I won't talk to you ever again. I won't be around to make you sad anymore. Please don't be sad... I love you. But I'm not saying it. Because I don't want to make you sad anymore. You'll never be like me. But why are you here?
Hello?
I'm confused. Don't hug me. Don't touch me. I don't like being hugged. You know I don't. Hugs make me feel uncomfortable. Don't. You look sad. Don't say you're sorry. You just forgot. But I'm still confused. Why did you do that? You'll never be like me. Don't...
Hello?
Why are you doing this to me? Why are you kissing me? I don't want you to! I don't! You're lying to me! You're only going to break my heart! Do you think this is some kind of game? Is this a sick joke? No...I'm sorry...don't be sad. I'm so sorry. It's just...you'll never be like me. You have her. She has you. You'll never be the way I am.
Hello?
Stop looking at me like that! You know damn well that I'm right! You wouldn't be happy with me anyway. You would just miss her. No! Stop lying to me! Stop it! Please....you'll never be like me...no matter how much I wish you could be...please...I hurt again. Make it stop. Make it stop. Make it stop.
Hello.
You're crying. Crying over me. Don't cry. I'm sorry. I won't ever do it again. You thought you lost me. I'm sorry. You won't loose me. You can't loose someone you never had. No. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. You're more sorry. No. Don't say that. You tell me you don't want her. You want me. You're so sorry it had to come to this before you got the balls to tell me. But you were scared. I was too. I still am. Because I still don't think you'll ever be like me. Take my heart. Please don't break it.
Hello.
I love you too. You make me smile. All I ever do anymore is smile. You make me so happy. I love you so much. I believe you now. You made me believe. You are like me. Who cares about what everyone else thinks? We're in love and that's all that matters.
...Hello?
Why are you gone again? Why do I feel so invisible? Did I do something wrong already? Are you not happy with me? I hurt again. And again. And again. Maybe I trusted you too quickly. Maybe you never can be like me. Please don't break it...
Hello.
You're sad again. You're crying again. You're so sorry you weren't there. You're so sorry you made me do this. No! Shut up! You didn't make me! This isn't your fault. It's mine. All mine. I'm sorry... no. Don't say that. I'll stop. Please. I know you can't live like this. You can't be worried about me all the time. You have a life other then me. I know. I know. I know you can't watch me all day. Please don't break it...please be like me...don't break it...
Hello.
You're proud of me? Why? I didn't do anything. Oh. That. I haven't been hurting. Why is that something to be proud of me for? Everybody gets hurt sometimes. I just get hurt more then everyone else. Yes, it's been a week since I last got hurt. So what? I don't understand. But I don't tell you. I don't want to make you sad. I love it when you're happy...I miss being happy. Make me happy again. I know you're like me. I know. I believe you. I just want to be happy again.
Hello.
Don't be mad. I didn't. I swear. I just keep it with me. Just in case. I didn't use it! I swear! Please believe me...I love you.
Hello?
Why don't you believe me? NO! Don't leave! I need you! If you think I'm so broken why don't you try to help me? Please don't...don't break it. Don't break it. I love you! I was wrong. I was so wrong. You will never be like me. You thought you could be. But I'm too much to handle. I'm sorry. I'm broken. I hurt.
Hello...
I hurt. So bad. Make it stop. Come back. Come back.....come back...
Hello...
I can hear you. Screaming. Sobbing. You're sorry. You're sorry. Don't be sorry. It's my fault. I hurt. Make it stop...make it go away...you're screaming. You're sobbing. You're sorry. You're sorry. I don't want to leave you. I'm sorry. I can't help it. I can't stop it. I'm sorry I didn't believe you. You are like me...you're sorry you didn't believe me. But...I can't blame you...make it stop...fix me, Frankie. Please fix me.
Hello.
You scream. Don't leave me, Gerard. Don't leave me. I'm sorry, Frankie. I don't want to. But I have to. Everything hurts, Frankie. I just want it to go away. I love you. So, so much.
Goodbye.
Author: howXiXdisappear
Prompt: 07. Friend.
Pairing: Gerard Way/Frank Iero
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Hello. I want you. Even though you'll never want me back. You're not like me. You're not the way I am. You'll never be attracted to someone like me. Ever.
Disclaimer: Don't own. Don't sue.
Author Notes: I wrote and posted this about two years ago, but never posted it to my journal or anything, so I figured I'd reserect it. It's probably one of my favorites that I've written. Hope you like it too. :]
Hello.
I want you. Even though you'll never want me back. You're not like me. You're not the way I am. You'll never be attracted to someone like me. Ever.
Hello.
I love you. Even though you'll never feel the same. You never could. You're not like me. You'll never be. You'll never be the way I am. You could never love someone like me.
Hello.
You're the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on. But you don't know I think that. I can't ever tell you. You'll hate me. Because you're not like me. And you'll never be. No amount of wishing can make that change. You could never see someone like me the way I see you.
Hello.
You're the reason why I'm breathing. Even though I know I'm not your reason. You're not like me. You have her. She has you. You don't have even the slightest idea how much it hurts to see. To see the two of you together. To know. To know that there is no way this feeling will ever be mutual. I could never be the reason you're breathing.
Hello.
Don't you hear me anymore? You used to pay attention. You used to care. Why do you only go to her anymore? What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? Am I invisible? Am I dead? Hello? You'll never be like me. But that's okay. It's okay. Please listen to me... I need you to hear me.
Hello?
I'm dying. I'm dying. I'm dying and you don't know. But that's okay. It's okay. Because I don't think you'd care. You have her. She has you. And you'll never be like me. But it's okay. I still love you. Just don't ignore me anymore. Please? I miss you.
Hello.
You talked to me today. You called me stupid. I know. I know. But it hurts. Everything hurts. Stop it. Please stop it. Don't yell. You make me hurt worse. Don't you understand that? You make me hurt so bad. I lied. I lied. I'm a liar. You'll never be like me. And it's not okay. It's not. It's not okay.
Hello.
Where are you? Why did you look at me like that? Why did you leave? You're going back to her, aren't you. You are. You are and I hate her for it. I don't hate you though. I never could hate you. Just don't make me hurt anymore. You'll never be like me. And I'm trying to deal with that. You'll never be the way I am. I understand...at least I'm trying...
Hello?
Come back! You're gone. You're gone. You're gone and I miss you. I need you. Help me. Come back. I hurt again. I don't know why. Why do I hurt so bad? I'm loosing it. It's not your fault though. It's hers. Don't blame yourself. Blame her. She's bad. She's bad. Evil. She wants to take you away from me...but I remember now, you never belonged to me. You'll never be like me. So I should stop wishing.
Hello...
This is awkward. I can't look at you. I can't look at the angry expression on your face. It hurts. I hurt. Make the hurting stop. I know. I know. I know I'm stupid. I know I need to stop this. No. I can't tell you why I do this. Stop asking me. Stop asking me if it's your fault. Do you want it to be? It can't be. It's mine. I shouldn't expect things to be happily ever after. Because you'll never be like me. You wouldn't understand.
Hello.
I'm not hurting right now. She's away for today. And it's just the two of us. I don't think I've smiled this much for so long. You know too. You tell me how nice it is to see me smile. It's nicer to see you smile though. Mine is not good. Mine is ugly. You're beautiful though. I wish I was beautiful like you. But I don't want to think about that right now. Today is a good day. Today I got you. I don't care about tomorrow right now. Today I can pretend that you're like me. Except for no kiss goodbye.
Hello.
I miss yesterday. I wish it could've ended the way I wanted it to. But that would only make today awkward. She's back again. She back and you're back to her. And I'm back to invisible. I'm sorry. Did I do something wrong yesterday? Did I say something out loud? I'm sorry. Please see me. Please hear me. Hello? I love you. But you can't love me back. You'll never be like me. You'll never love me back. Fine then. Don't hear me. I don't care...yes I do.
Hello?
I hurt again. I hurt and it won't go away. I can't stop screaming. I can't stop crying. You come. You're confused. You're scared. You're mad. No! I'm not going to stop! Fucking listen to me for once, dammit! You stare at me. I've never yelled at you before. I love you. I love you so much. Why can't you love me back?! I'm sobbing. I'm sobbing and telling you everything. But you'll never be like me. You say you are sorry. So so sorry. And you leave.
Hello...
Why did you come back? Why are your eyes red? Have you been crying? I'm sorry. It's my fault. I'll go away. I won't talk to you ever again. I won't be around to make you sad anymore. Please don't be sad... I love you. But I'm not saying it. Because I don't want to make you sad anymore. You'll never be like me. But why are you here?
Hello?
I'm confused. Don't hug me. Don't touch me. I don't like being hugged. You know I don't. Hugs make me feel uncomfortable. Don't. You look sad. Don't say you're sorry. You just forgot. But I'm still confused. Why did you do that? You'll never be like me. Don't...
Hello?
Why are you doing this to me? Why are you kissing me? I don't want you to! I don't! You're lying to me! You're only going to break my heart! Do you think this is some kind of game? Is this a sick joke? No...I'm sorry...don't be sad. I'm so sorry. It's just...you'll never be like me. You have her. She has you. You'll never be the way I am.
Hello?
Stop looking at me like that! You know damn well that I'm right! You wouldn't be happy with me anyway. You would just miss her. No! Stop lying to me! Stop it! Please....you'll never be like me...no matter how much I wish you could be...please...I hurt again. Make it stop. Make it stop. Make it stop.
Hello.
You're crying. Crying over me. Don't cry. I'm sorry. I won't ever do it again. You thought you lost me. I'm sorry. You won't loose me. You can't loose someone you never had. No. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. You're more sorry. No. Don't say that. You tell me you don't want her. You want me. You're so sorry it had to come to this before you got the balls to tell me. But you were scared. I was too. I still am. Because I still don't think you'll ever be like me. Take my heart. Please don't break it.
Hello.
I love you too. You make me smile. All I ever do anymore is smile. You make me so happy. I love you so much. I believe you now. You made me believe. You are like me. Who cares about what everyone else thinks? We're in love and that's all that matters.
...Hello?
Why are you gone again? Why do I feel so invisible? Did I do something wrong already? Are you not happy with me? I hurt again. And again. And again. Maybe I trusted you too quickly. Maybe you never can be like me. Please don't break it...
Hello.
You're sad again. You're crying again. You're so sorry you weren't there. You're so sorry you made me do this. No! Shut up! You didn't make me! This isn't your fault. It's mine. All mine. I'm sorry... no. Don't say that. I'll stop. Please. I know you can't live like this. You can't be worried about me all the time. You have a life other then me. I know. I know. I know you can't watch me all day. Please don't break it...please be like me...don't break it...
Hello.
You're proud of me? Why? I didn't do anything. Oh. That. I haven't been hurting. Why is that something to be proud of me for? Everybody gets hurt sometimes. I just get hurt more then everyone else. Yes, it's been a week since I last got hurt. So what? I don't understand. But I don't tell you. I don't want to make you sad. I love it when you're happy...I miss being happy. Make me happy again. I know you're like me. I know. I believe you. I just want to be happy again.
Hello.
Don't be mad. I didn't. I swear. I just keep it with me. Just in case. I didn't use it! I swear! Please believe me...I love you.
Hello?
Why don't you believe me? NO! Don't leave! I need you! If you think I'm so broken why don't you try to help me? Please don't...don't break it. Don't break it. I love you! I was wrong. I was so wrong. You will never be like me. You thought you could be. But I'm too much to handle. I'm sorry. I'm broken. I hurt.
Hello...
I hurt. So bad. Make it stop. Come back. Come back.....come back...
Hello...
I can hear you. Screaming. Sobbing. You're sorry. You're sorry. Don't be sorry. It's my fault. I hurt. Make it stop...make it go away...you're screaming. You're sobbing. You're sorry. You're sorry. I don't want to leave you. I'm sorry. I can't help it. I can't stop it. I'm sorry I didn't believe you. You are like me...you're sorry you didn't believe me. But...I can't blame you...make it stop...fix me, Frankie. Please fix me.
Hello.
You scream. Don't leave me, Gerard. Don't leave me. I'm sorry, Frankie. I don't want to. But I have to. Everything hurts, Frankie. I just want it to go away. I love you. So, so much.
Goodbye.