finally motivated

[howtokillmyself]

When I go back to college, it'll be all about restriction. I've mapped out my days, my food, my meals. I'm going to be on a permanent schedule for the next three months (unless I move out of the dorms before that). I've made meal plans for each day of the week stating that I can eat x item at x time of x day. I won't let myself slip up or get away

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[simplicity_star]

The thing about perfectionism, is that it can never... NEVER be reached. Because your a perfectionist, things being perfect, never will be perfect enough. I know how that motivation feeling feels, but it doesn't last. As much as you want it to, it doesn't. Then you feel like shit the next time that you 'fail' Please dont choice this path. I know how tempting it is to do so, because of how you feel, but i promise, you will feel better if you chose the other path.
Hang in there sweetie,
im here if you need to talk
(altho u prob wont want to after all that)
xo R.

[howtokillmyself]

I know that... all of my experience has taught me that... but for some reason it feels better (or for some reason I think it feels better?) to keep kidding myself. I still don't feel like I can just say "enough is enough" and mean it... I don't know why. You'd think by this point I'd be mature enough to give it up. :/ Thank you, though, and I really hope things are going well for you.

[midnightwilight]

I can't wait for this holiday to be over too, and get back to total restriction.

Best of luck, and take care!!