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last weigh-in: 188
today’s weigh-in: 182.8
-5.2
current goal: lose 25lbs
lbs to go: 19.8
Weigh in today was surprisingly pleasant. I knew that I’d done pretty well eating-wise, but I hadn’t expected it to be this good. My scale got a bit iffy on me though - it came up with 2 different numbers before consectively setting on 182.8. It hasn’t done that to me before, I hope that nothing’s wrong with it.
I’m right on track. I expect to lose 2lbs a week after this. I realized that for the whole month of March I actually gained weight and in April I only lost 1.4lbs, so I’m guessing this week’s big loss is because my body is just now adjusting to really eating well and losing again. I am back to my lowest current weight again (lw since starting this effort in Jan). I have not seen the 170’s in a long time. Maybe I only saw them once, because I know that when I was gaining all of this weight, I wasn’t too keen on weighing myself.
I have not worked out since Tuesday. It’s been a strange and busy past week, but I think that most of my reluctance to get on that treadmill comes from fatigue. I work every day of the week & have classes 5 days a week, so it’s hard to get up in the morning - I am desperate for that extra hour of sleep! Or when I come home - too busy or just finally wanting to relax. But I need to do it, if not to lose weight, then to make traveling around NYC in only (!!) a month easier.
Oh, another discovery I have had that makes things easier: sample sizes!! I was tempted to try out the new raspberry shake at work last week, when my boss offerred me a sample. I immediately said no. It’s a reflex. It comes from being fat in stigmatizing society & trying to lose weight at the same time. But then it hit me. Why would I say no to two sips of a shake but think it could be okay to order the whole thing later? I’m glad I did try it - it tasted like crap. Had I ordered it, I probably would have consumed the whole thing for various reasons, but since I tried it out beforehand, my curiousity was satisfied, and I knew that it wasn’t worth it. I think that this can be applied to tastier things, too. I just need to get over my all-or-nothing mentality that is so common among EDs of any kind. Having two sips of a shake can satisfy that curiousity or desire without screwing me over like having the whole thing would.