I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain...Don't you know that i always see you all of my dreams.
Reasons why i hate holidays
The past year the holidays have been not fun
my birthday last year sucked like the morning sucked cause i cried so much the afternoon was okay cause tatiana and anthony came over but that night was horrible i cried soo much and i didn't sleep all night being that my mother said "you could drop dead right now and i wouldn't care" is not ..the best birthday present ever
halloween was okay cause i got to hang out with katie <33
Thanksgiving ..my mom attempted sucide ....
X-mas-my mom and dad were starting to argue alot ..again it wasn't that bad though
New years eve-SuckeD! my parents were on the verge of getting a divorce (again) so my mom wasn't home and wen she was she just took sleeping pills and slept..but ..although things weren't good with my mom and dad me and my mom started to get along again ..but she was looking for a house to move out
Valentines day-I was just dumb and got depressed i hate myself for that and my parents still weren't ...getting along
Easter ..well this easter now ..i remember a bit more being that it was just yesterday...things were okay in the morning my mom was getting along with my dad from the looks of it ..but then my dad started with the attitude again ...treating my mom like a child and telling her what to do when to do it..so she got upset and stayed upstairs for a while..while my grandma and my dad were talking about her...they were sitting right next to me while i was on the computer i just tired not to pay any attention to what they were saying ..that my moms not normal..she acts crazy ..and i'm sorry if i ever called my mom unnormal or crazy..though shes not the best mom in the world...she tries..and they kept saying that she needs to go to a phycatrist(sp) again..and just b/s i didn't tell my mom any of this because i never tell my mom what my dad says and i never tell my dad what my mom says because they would just then hate me both and i don't want to make things worse and get involved so then it was about 9 i was watching tv in the guest room my uncle had already left and my dad was taking my grandma home..then my mom came in the room with alot of my dads stuff and she just kept bringing in more and putting it in the closet ..she told me that she heard everythign that they were talkign about she could hear it from the closet upstairs in her room..so ..from the looks of things my mom was kicking my dad out from the room .and he was moving in the questroom..when my dad came home..he was surprised and angry...and just kept saying "Casa de locos" (house of crazy's)...my mom told me to stay near her..because she was scared my dad might hit her ..now i never saw my dad hit my mom..but i knew hes done it i've seen him push her strongly but never hit ..so i stayed around ..but they were arguging very loud..i didn't want to hear what they were saying anymore..so i went upstairs..talking to my sister for a bit..she hates when they fight and she could hear everything there saying becuase her room was right above the questroom so she went in my room with the door locked it was better alot better...my brother.i guess hes to little to understand ..so he was just watching privite ryrn ..upstairs..he seemed okay..I tired to stay away from my dad i could tell he was angry and i didn't want to make any eye contact with him ..my mom was crying and crying..I never no what to do in these kind of situactions..things started to calm down ..we all went to bed..i don't know what went on while me and my brother and sister were sleeping i don't want to know..so my dad went to work this morning..came back at 12 3o and left for costa rica at 1 40 ..they were arguing for a bit..no one cried..my mom seems to be okay..me and her are okay i was just talking to her b4 she left to go to work ..she'll be home at 10.tonight tomarrow we go back to school my dad comes back friday ..so hopefully the next 4 days will be calm ..