im so sorry

[howiwishiwasnt]

im disgusted with myself. its been 22 days, and im proud. and if it goes on for 343 more days i will be happier in a way. the more time were apart the more i get used to it. the more i like it. and its sad. and its wrong. but it still feels good. on some level. so if you read this, stay away. itll make me happier in the end.

here i rest. where dissapointment and regret collide. lying awake at night. all night.