just right tired of the nothing.
checkitout, im not having the fun as much as i should. not my friendses faults,theyre all very wicket great times,lot of hearts for them. but lates drinking party seems to always mean like 3 couples and me in a living room. sometimes i just hate hanging out with only couplings. even the ones i like the highest best. jealousy? so.what.
aand plus also! who wants to try at making new friends? most all people i guess, but im a wimp tho and ive got some trust issues... my own big little problem yeah yeah yeah. but isnt it pain when you really like someone and they change their mind about you? fright.... im not doing much to fix any things and i think im spending too much time in my head.
in conclusion, doing anything different. at all. would be ok. but maybe thats a lie, i dont know what i want. a cig? prolly. a depressing soundtrack? always helpful. something that makes your lungs feel smaller...
guess i need to think of ways to entertain myself. maybe i need a new hobby. and to quit smoking.
and i really am sorry for when i act crazy, am a bitch, am a baby, am indecisive, act the snot, stop being funny, act stupid, get a hurt feeling, get obsessed, or if every second time i see you i act shy or like i dont know you. i never quite figured out how to act around people when i dont know how they feel about me,no matter how well i know them. so its time to stop worrying about that. and i dont think im really cold. so im going to try to stop doing/being all these things. i bet i said that before.
oh! and im going to try to move my face less, i just saw a video of me and i look like an idiot.
good think i concluded a million words ago.
aand plus also! who wants to try at making new friends? most all people i guess, but im a wimp tho and ive got some trust issues... my own big little problem yeah yeah yeah. but isnt it pain when you really like someone and they change their mind about you? fright.... im not doing much to fix any things and i think im spending too much time in my head.
in conclusion, doing anything different. at all. would be ok. but maybe thats a lie, i dont know what i want. a cig? prolly. a depressing soundtrack? always helpful. something that makes your lungs feel smaller...
guess i need to think of ways to entertain myself. maybe i need a new hobby. and to quit smoking.
and i really am sorry for when i act crazy, am a bitch, am a baby, am indecisive, act the snot, stop being funny, act stupid, get a hurt feeling, get obsessed, or if every second time i see you i act shy or like i dont know you. i never quite figured out how to act around people when i dont know how they feel about me,no matter how well i know them. so its time to stop worrying about that. and i dont think im really cold. so im going to try to stop doing/being all these things. i bet i said that before.
oh! and im going to try to move my face less, i just saw a video of me and i look like an idiot.
good think i concluded a million words ago.