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[howey21]

So, six days of drinkin, 6 more days of laying alone in a bed which is filled with emptiness,cold drafts and an image of a silhouette of a girl laying next to me. the nights are nothing but a passing of time to me now. I used to look forward to those night i know i have someone special to come over. To talk to, or cuddle. That has long since gone. I try to tell my self that ill find that one girl that makes me stop and look twice. THat one girl that i know is the one for me. That one girl i know i can talk to, and i know nothing else around me. But latley that feeling is just a soft whisper, anything more than a whisper, it would mearly blow away....So hope for that perfect relationship...well lets just say that its a figment of my imagination. I know their will never be a "perfect relationship" but one can imagine. I try not to put myself into a category, but i know right now im a hopeless romantic. I think alot of people are, its just the fact of admitting it. I have no problem. I love talking about what it would be like to have a relationship. how i would try to make it perfect. How i would do the little things. I love to do them. I love to write about what it would be like to be in love, although i've never experienced it myself. I love to imagin myself in that situation... I guess i've come to the point where im ready to have one of those relationships where im completely head over heals. Where nothing else matters but the moments you spend with the person your in love with. You cherish the very breath that comes out of her mouth. Even the stupid things shes says or does. The good the bad, and hard times. I want it all....!

If dreams are like movies, then memories are like ghost!