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I'ts weird. With the way that things are going right now, I feel like I'm ignoring all of my friends. I don't mean to, I just don't actually do anything. I'm not the one to call people up either. I dunno, never has been my style. I do have tomorrow night off so maybe I'll be alright that way..hang out with some peeps.
The weirdest part about it, is that when I hang out with people..I don't feel like I belong anymore. I never have any idea about what's going on. Like I'm totally in the dark about everything going on in their life. And I know it's always aggravating to them to always have to repeat themselves of all the events of the past month. And yea, inside jokes are non-existant because well, I can't ever remember anything from the part yearthat we have as an inside joke.
I am rich though. That's always a nice plus. Course I'm not filthy rich..but what 19 year old is. I mean seriously. So yea, I kinda like to pay for people because hell...it isn't like I'm poor or anything. But I dunno. I really am not one to hang out in large groups anymore. I always feel so left out. I mean, they don't mean to do it. They don't go off on tangents about events that they did together and people that they all know (savefor me) intentionally. So, I'm kinda in a rut here.
The bad part about all of this, is that I don't even feel as if I can really help out, because I don't know what's going on and I have no idea who the people are. What kinda friend is that?