Haven't been here in a while
It's officially one year since Christopher died, according to my timezone. I'm not sure how I feel about today. Should I put it in Calendars as a day to remember? Is it respectful? I feel ok. I've put today aside to mope and cry and do nothing in case that's what I need but right now it just feels like a Saturday. It's sunny outside, I just spent 3 hours finishing a game of civilisation 5 instead of enjoying that sun (won a science victory), been listening to music while I played, feels good to be able to do this, I do however wish the computer was a bit faster, perhaps there's some registry bugs cos it's got heaps of RAM and memory. Well, I'm unclear whether there's a video card in there.... probably has something to do with it. Doesn't explain the slow start up though.
It's pride parade tomorrow. Things are happening that I feel Christopher would have been excited about.
Getting civ 5
Pride
Rachelle and I went to this ceramics place the other week and painted a pot and tea cup like chip and Mrs Potts from beauty and the beast, he would have loved it. I still remember going to the musical of it in Wellington cos of some guy I met, got 3 free tickets and Dad had to sit on his own so me and Christopher could sit together and we obnoxiously sang all the songs and *squeed* all the way through.
He had a cat in his flat that totally loved him too but I don't think he was the biggest fan, I think I'll ask Erin about that. But the cat I've got now "slept" with me and Rachelle last night. It was waiting at the door, it came in, pawed the blankets, sat on Rachelle, walked around, lay down beside me, got up, and then scratched at the door to get out. Not so impressed.
One of my families, the mum, lost her sister to cancer so I had a good chat to her. She suggested journalling to help keep all those memories.
I went to an amusement park and yelled obnoxiously on all the rides. It friggin rocked. AtmosFEAR and Revelation BLEW MY MIND.
It's magical being able to decide to go, it cost about $40 and we spent the afternoon there doing AWESOME RIDES. No lines cos we went a bit later. So friggin good.
Work is going well. It's so rewarding, I get to go to the park with the families, I think we're going to the beach on monday. Pay hasn't been sorted out for one family yet and there's unexpected paperwork slowing things down but it'll happen.
It's pride parade tomorrow. Things are happening that I feel Christopher would have been excited about.
Getting civ 5
Pride
Rachelle and I went to this ceramics place the other week and painted a pot and tea cup like chip and Mrs Potts from beauty and the beast, he would have loved it. I still remember going to the musical of it in Wellington cos of some guy I met, got 3 free tickets and Dad had to sit on his own so me and Christopher could sit together and we obnoxiously sang all the songs and *squeed* all the way through.
He had a cat in his flat that totally loved him too but I don't think he was the biggest fan, I think I'll ask Erin about that. But the cat I've got now "slept" with me and Rachelle last night. It was waiting at the door, it came in, pawed the blankets, sat on Rachelle, walked around, lay down beside me, got up, and then scratched at the door to get out. Not so impressed.
One of my families, the mum, lost her sister to cancer so I had a good chat to her. She suggested journalling to help keep all those memories.
I went to an amusement park and yelled obnoxiously on all the rides. It friggin rocked. AtmosFEAR and Revelation BLEW MY MIND.
It's magical being able to decide to go, it cost about $40 and we spent the afternoon there doing AWESOME RIDES. No lines cos we went a bit later. So friggin good.
Work is going well. It's so rewarding, I get to go to the park with the families, I think we're going to the beach on monday. Pay hasn't been sorted out for one family yet and there's unexpected paperwork slowing things down but it'll happen.