Uuughhhbh
I feel rubbish and whiney. My head hurts, I slept so badly last night I was up a few times to eat in case I was hungry (sometimes I wake up hungry and can't sleep til I eat something) and getting water in case thirst was keeping me awake. My crazy is rising to the surface and it's irksome. I haven't had enough exercise nor sleep and I suspect this is why. So I'm going dancing tonight.
YAY DANCING.
I went to Bright Nights the other night. it's this lights festival at Stanley Park. So many lights. There's a christmas train and it gets booked out so Rachelle's friend booked us all tickets the day before. It was brill fun. We had roasted pistachios!
And the plan is for new years to be off the hook. I'm gonna be so on form. But also articulate because no one can understand me!
Christmas was really good but also hard. Surrounded by my uncle Vern's family, they are all so lovely, I stayed with his sister, Barb, and her husband with Uncle Vern and Auntie Sheryl. Auntie Sheryl made me a uke case and it is awesome. And I made Uncle Vern a mini golf course "for when you can't get out on the course". he golfs ALL the time.
But I was lacking sleep because of a few late nights and also, it's my first Christmas away from family let alone without Christopher. We went to mass on Christmas eve which I cried basically the whole way through until my aunt asked if I wanted to leave. We made it outside and the crying turned into an anxiety attack and they took me home early. but I cried it all, as it always goes, and felt better for it. I spent most of boxing day holding a baby hehe. We went to someone's house for brunch (at 2pm? I don't know...) and there was a baby and it was adorable. She. She was adorable.
But overall things are well heh. Job interview tomorrow. Getting filling fixed tomorrow (it's gonna be $306 and I'm not sure if tax is added on to that yet...). Social is good.
I need to get shiz together
love jen