"..things i held sacred, that ive dropped.."
so i feel like its been 500 million years since ive been on here and actually updated. ive deserted you!! and im sorry. however...ive been insanely busy with not-interesting things like work and school, though, so, in my defense, you wouldnt have cared to hear about my going-ons anyway.
i made up with jeff (sorta) and we actually talk now, even though its only through text. but still...its a start. josh and i met dan at dennys tonight for a little bit. i didnt like it. i didnt like being there at all. iunno, i guess it just reminded me of things, you know? its not like i wanted to be there again with the same group, so i thought itd be ok...but i was there with different people, at a different time, at a different table, and it just wasnt right. i guess its going to take longer than i thought.
anyway...onto non-depressing things.
ok i lied- one more angering issue: i got my hair cut and dyed just recently. it was supposed to be black with bright red streaks but the fucktard made it dark brown with dark red streaks so it looks like something i could have done myself and not paid 70 bucks for. and the cut is the opposite of what i wanted because i think the stylist was dyslexic. but...thats what i get for going to a training salon and not a real hair cut place.
i tried giving blood today. DENIED. my iron was 11.5 and they need it to be 12.5 to qualify. bloody anemia. i still ate all their food anyway though. and then i cut my thumb instead of my bagel. so i took their bandaides, too. thatll teach them to not take my blood!
josh and i saw underworld: evolution tonight with jenny, jessica and dan. it was decent. not as good as the first, and somewhat anti-climactic, but it still had vampires, werewolves and sexy technology in it, so i had a good time.
ive been out of my lexapro for a couple weeks and keep forgetting to refill it. by far not the smartest decision ive ever made, but i havent overdosed on anything yet, so i figure im good for another week or so. ive just been too fucking busy to get another appointment scheduled with my shrink. fucking starbucks.
im hungry and would like some sparkling grape juice and a turkey sandwich. with lettuce. and a small bit of mayo.
so...im fairly picky about the music i listen to, and im usually not one to care about it if its overhyped mainstream stuff. not because im so indie or anything, but because i dont usually like the same music as my sister and her friends, so i dont bother checking out new bands. HOWEVER...i kept hearing the end of this song on the radio and i really liked it, but i never could figure out who it was by...then josh was talking to me tonight about some crappy new pop-punk band he actually like, called Fall Out Boy, and it reminded me to ask him about the song id kept hearing. oddly enough, it turns out it was a fall out boy song, "sugar were going down" or something like that. normally, green day is the only band ill allow to sing like they have a perpetual cold, so im really surprised i like this song. and i wanna hear more! so i ask you...
am i lame for kinda liking fall out boy???
cuz i feel really lame.
i made up with jeff (sorta) and we actually talk now, even though its only through text. but still...its a start. josh and i met dan at dennys tonight for a little bit. i didnt like it. i didnt like being there at all. iunno, i guess it just reminded me of things, you know? its not like i wanted to be there again with the same group, so i thought itd be ok...but i was there with different people, at a different time, at a different table, and it just wasnt right. i guess its going to take longer than i thought.
anyway...onto non-depressing things.
ok i lied- one more angering issue: i got my hair cut and dyed just recently. it was supposed to be black with bright red streaks but the fucktard made it dark brown with dark red streaks so it looks like something i could have done myself and not paid 70 bucks for. and the cut is the opposite of what i wanted because i think the stylist was dyslexic. but...thats what i get for going to a training salon and not a real hair cut place.
i tried giving blood today. DENIED. my iron was 11.5 and they need it to be 12.5 to qualify. bloody anemia. i still ate all their food anyway though. and then i cut my thumb instead of my bagel. so i took their bandaides, too. thatll teach them to not take my blood!
josh and i saw underworld: evolution tonight with jenny, jessica and dan. it was decent. not as good as the first, and somewhat anti-climactic, but it still had vampires, werewolves and sexy technology in it, so i had a good time.
ive been out of my lexapro for a couple weeks and keep forgetting to refill it. by far not the smartest decision ive ever made, but i havent overdosed on anything yet, so i figure im good for another week or so. ive just been too fucking busy to get another appointment scheduled with my shrink. fucking starbucks.
im hungry and would like some sparkling grape juice and a turkey sandwich. with lettuce. and a small bit of mayo.
so...im fairly picky about the music i listen to, and im usually not one to care about it if its overhyped mainstream stuff. not because im so indie or anything, but because i dont usually like the same music as my sister and her friends, so i dont bother checking out new bands. HOWEVER...i kept hearing the end of this song on the radio and i really liked it, but i never could figure out who it was by...then josh was talking to me tonight about some crappy new pop-punk band he actually like, called Fall Out Boy, and it reminded me to ask him about the song id kept hearing. oddly enough, it turns out it was a fall out boy song, "sugar were going down" or something like that. normally, green day is the only band ill allow to sing like they have a perpetual cold, so im really surprised i like this song. and i wanna hear more! so i ask you...
am i lame for kinda liking fall out boy???
cuz i feel really lame.