And it hit me like a ton of bricks
Valentines day, 2009.
Some feelings only come around once or twice in a lifetime. Maybe it was the fact that I was tired, or maybe it was because I hadn't seen my Ren for over 2 weeks prior (ya, not all that long of a time... but still too long for me to be without my princess) or maybe neither of those things had anything to do with what happened. I've known I've loved her for quite some time (since we started dating) but I never really had one of those moments where my heart just flutters uncontrollably or [insert whatever lame lovey-dovey cliche here]...
Here's the nutshell. After a LONG (and incredibly amazing) day at the renaissance festival, we went back to her place after dropping off some friends and picking up some chipotle (the missing piece of my life since moving up to utah). She's been going on about wanting to watch Definately, Maybe and I was all up for seeing a movie that I hadnt seen yet. Come to find out, as we were brushing our teeth and getting ready for bed, that I had, in fact, seen the movie... not a problem for me but she wants to watch something we both hadn't seen. Her sister had House Bunny that we were interested in seeing so, after a quick call, we popped the movie in and got snuggled into bed. Apparently, its a Happy Madison production. I wasnt really in the mood for Adam Sandler style humor but I couldn't think of a better choice, or rather I didn't care all that much, so I kept my mouth shut and held her tighter.
About the middle of the movie a song came on that she knew. I had my arm around her and she just looked at me with the cutest smile and started singing along and shaking her shoulders and moving her hips. I don't know what happened next. All of a sudden my heart just started pounding furiously and... an indescribable feeling came over me. I rolled ontop of her and pinned her down (I had side control now, and her lack of ground work means I have the upper hand). It didn't phase her, she just had an amazingly devilish twinkle in her eye and kept on smiling and kept on dancing. Whatever she was doing was driving me wild with infatuation... mad with love... however you wanna say it.
"If you don't stop now I'm going to [censored] you" - use your imagination ;)
The rest is history (and yes we did finish the movie). But the feeling she gave me at that point in time was overwhelming. I really have never felt that way in my entire life. I thought fell in love with her a while ago... but maybe that was just me tripping over her mischievious little feet and last night was me actually falling off the cliff... Whatever it was, at the core, it was love. A perfect ending to a wonderfull day <3