Krazy summer thoughts!
ok...so Im tryna except the fact that i think that i am pretty much misunderstood by pretty much every damn person in my life!!!..No one gets me, and when they do try..it just never works.....Hell I dont even understand me, I dont even knoe whats goin on with me...Im soooooo damn stressed about so much right now..i dont knoe if im comin or goin!!...Ahhhhhhhh...i feel like every damn day im losing my freakin mind...an on top of it all i dont have any body to help me out....
My "So -Called" Boyfriend is acting like he is a lil kid...i dont have any patience for people anyway...but especially for boys!! He is drivin me up tha damn wall!!...i dont have time for lil immature games he is playin!!...I am goin to jail..cuz this fool is drivin me krazy..imma kill him!....
Why is life so damn much of a bitch!?....its krazy...im so confused about what to do about alot of stuff...It's like the closer college gets tha more im not feelin it!!..i dont know why but im just not feelin it at all.....like its jus not 4 me...even though im gonna make myself go...im jus not feelin like im gonna get anythin out of it!!.....jus more school!.......
I knoe what i want out of life, i know what makes me happy, i knoe what makes me smile, i know what makes me enjoy life...i know what i love the most out of anything else on this planet..Im scared i'll never be able to do it...Im scared of bein 40, 50 sumthin..and lookin back on my life and not havin anything to show for it!...I dont ever wanna have to say " I wonder what would have happen if i....".....or "Why didnt i try that...."......i wanna be able to say I ENJOY WHAT I DO!......I wanna love what i do and do what i love!!!
oh well ...i guess im done venting.............for now.............wateva........................
oh and p.s. - Its official I will be Marrying Orlando Bloom in the future!!....thats my hubby!
My "So -Called" Boyfriend is acting like he is a lil kid...i dont have any patience for people anyway...but especially for boys!! He is drivin me up tha damn wall!!...i dont have time for lil immature games he is playin!!...I am goin to jail..cuz this fool is drivin me krazy..imma kill him!....
Why is life so damn much of a bitch!?....its krazy...im so confused about what to do about alot of stuff...It's like the closer college gets tha more im not feelin it!!..i dont know why but im just not feelin it at all.....like its jus not 4 me...even though im gonna make myself go...im jus not feelin like im gonna get anythin out of it!!.....jus more school!.......
I knoe what i want out of life, i know what makes me happy, i knoe what makes me smile, i know what makes me enjoy life...i know what i love the most out of anything else on this planet..Im scared i'll never be able to do it...Im scared of bein 40, 50 sumthin..and lookin back on my life and not havin anything to show for it!...I dont ever wanna have to say " I wonder what would have happen if i....".....or "Why didnt i try that...."......i wanna be able to say I ENJOY WHAT I DO!......I wanna love what i do and do what i love!!!
oh well ...i guess im done venting.............for now.............wateva........................
oh and p.s. - Its official I will be Marrying Orlando Bloom in the future!!....thats my hubby!