I Am Slightly Annoyed With Myself Right Now...
Can someone please tell me why I had to be born an obssessive perfectionist?
I desperately want to revamp my LJ with a new profile layout, new banners, and a redone interests list. And I realyl want to upgrade to a paid account because I cannot STAND the 15 Userpics limit any longer! I freaking can't! I have too many fandoms and too many pretty pics to fit into such a pitiful limit as 15!
I also want to finally complete the half-a-jillion fanfics I've started. I want to screencap all of my favorite House, X-Files, and Angel episodes, as well as the Harry Potter movies.
I want to get a photoshop program so I can finally make some of my own fanart using my own ideas. I want to make banners and headers and icons and layouts and fanmixes. Speaking of which, I want to learn how to set the music up when making a fanmix so that it can be downloaded.
I want to buy Sony Vegas or some such other program so I can make all of the fanvideos I've had in my head lately, desperately wanting to be made!
I want to put all of my wanted items on my Amazon.com wishlist.
I want to organize all of my lists into one notebook.
I want to make index cards for all of my DVDs and CDs.
I want to reorgrganize my bookshelf.
I want to clean my ridiculously messy bedroom.
I want to buy some new clothes and accessories which I need badly before senior year starts this Fall.
I want to get some driving practice in, so I can get my driver's license before I'm of legal drinking age.
I want (and NEED) to fill out some job applications, so I can gain employment to make more money to purchase a car, the new wardobe listed above, a laptop for college, and fun stuff like an ipod, DVDS, CDs, etc.
I want to actually READ half of the books on my bookcase.
I want to.....
Well, you all get the picture,I think. I have a humongous list of things which I'd like to get done before I'm an old lady, but I haven't even begun! Why? BECAUSE I'm TOO MUCH OF A DAMNED PERFECTIONIST, THAT'S WHY!!!!!
I let myself get all spazzed out if I don't make lists and plans of everything in advance and follow them to the letter. I freak if every list isn't alphabetical. I mope if a single object is out of place. In short: I am a nutjob!
Sometimes, this is a good thing, as it means I get good grades and such because I'm so intent on doing a perfect job. And I'm usually very prepared for all occurences when on a vacation. However, I'm getting to that age where I'm starting to worry about the fact that I haven't gotten done half the things I want to have done before I go to college a little over a year from now.(Which brings up a whole other issue:COLLEGE APPLICATIONS! OH GOD! I HAVEN'T EVEN LOOKED UP THE WEBSITE TO ONE COLLEGE YET! WHAT WILL I DO! HEAVEN HELP ME!)
*BREATHES DEEPLY*
You see what I mean?
I just need to relax, to focus. I.Can.Do.This!
Please pray and/or cross your fingers for me on this point. It is imperative that I buckle down and start getting things done. Hmm, I've already made a basic list of Things-To-Do up there. Maybe I'll just start with number one and get going.
And before I start, I shall cheer myself up with this:
*sigh*
I desperately want to revamp my LJ with a new profile layout, new banners, and a redone interests list. And I realyl want to upgrade to a paid account because I cannot STAND the 15 Userpics limit any longer! I freaking can't! I have too many fandoms and too many pretty pics to fit into such a pitiful limit as 15!
I also want to finally complete the half-a-jillion fanfics I've started. I want to screencap all of my favorite House, X-Files, and Angel episodes, as well as the Harry Potter movies.
I want to get a photoshop program so I can finally make some of my own fanart using my own ideas. I want to make banners and headers and icons and layouts and fanmixes. Speaking of which, I want to learn how to set the music up when making a fanmix so that it can be downloaded.
I want to buy Sony Vegas or some such other program so I can make all of the fanvideos I've had in my head lately, desperately wanting to be made!
I want to put all of my wanted items on my Amazon.com wishlist.
I want to organize all of my lists into one notebook.
I want to make index cards for all of my DVDs and CDs.
I want to reorgrganize my bookshelf.
I want to clean my ridiculously messy bedroom.
I want to buy some new clothes and accessories which I need badly before senior year starts this Fall.
I want to get some driving practice in, so I can get my driver's license before I'm of legal drinking age.
I want (and NEED) to fill out some job applications, so I can gain employment to make more money to purchase a car, the new wardobe listed above, a laptop for college, and fun stuff like an ipod, DVDS, CDs, etc.
I want to actually READ half of the books on my bookcase.
I want to.....
Well, you all get the picture,I think. I have a humongous list of things which I'd like to get done before I'm an old lady, but I haven't even begun! Why? BECAUSE I'm TOO MUCH OF A DAMNED PERFECTIONIST, THAT'S WHY!!!!!
I let myself get all spazzed out if I don't make lists and plans of everything in advance and follow them to the letter. I freak if every list isn't alphabetical. I mope if a single object is out of place. In short: I am a nutjob!
Sometimes, this is a good thing, as it means I get good grades and such because I'm so intent on doing a perfect job. And I'm usually very prepared for all occurences when on a vacation. However, I'm getting to that age where I'm starting to worry about the fact that I haven't gotten done half the things I want to have done before I go to college a little over a year from now.(Which brings up a whole other issue:COLLEGE APPLICATIONS! OH GOD! I HAVEN'T EVEN LOOKED UP THE WEBSITE TO ONE COLLEGE YET! WHAT WILL I DO! HEAVEN HELP ME!)
*BREATHES DEEPLY*
You see what I mean?
I just need to relax, to focus. I.Can.Do.This!
Please pray and/or cross your fingers for me on this point. It is imperative that I buckle down and start getting things done. Hmm, I've already made a basic list of Things-To-Do up there. Maybe I'll just start with number one and get going.
And before I start, I shall cheer myself up with this:
*sigh*