Apr 14, 2012 21:25
I can't believe in it.
I can't understand.
I can't react.
I...I should to translate O-PARTS episode two...
I was in a middle of the translation when...
When my phone rang.
Lex, a friend of mine who I don't hear
from about an year is calling me.
He talked so much...
But I kept on to translate
while I listened to him...
I was really happy to hear
his voice, and he also sung
for me a bit of a song
in memory of old times .
He kept to say: It was 3 years!
3 years! Now what you are doing?
What kind of music you like?
And others things...
It was 40 minutes we was on the phone
when...
When my dad came in my room to say me:
Hey, they say M. collapsed in the middle of the match...
He's lying on football field
Do you remember him?
He was in our football team in childhood.
Of course I remember him!
Ok, I don't see him from 8 years
but I can't forget all about him!
After that I re-start my phone-conversation
and Lex told me: "Is him ok, right? Isn't him died, right?"
And then the phone calling fell down,
because my moile phone battery was flat.
It leave me a bitter feeling...
It was half an hour by it when my dad
come back to my room and said me:
He's died.
It was heart failure.
I was like: What?
No it isn't so.
It can't be.
He's 25!
He's a strong football player!
I really can't believe in it!
You are joking me!
Is it a lie, that's right?
So..
I started to searching information about it
on the web...
I was like possessed...
I couldn't stop myself.
I couldn't believe in what my eyes was reading.
I'm sorry.
I'm totally out of the mood.
I don't know why I started to write it here.
Maybe because...
Because my stomach feels empty,
I got a lump in my throat,
and my heart is totally freezed.
I have no-one to talk about it
So I unconsciously started to write...
Forgive me, please.
All about I'm able to think is:
He's going in the sky, out of the blue.
Pel
life,
housekini,
pel