Update
First of all: I'm drunk, so excuse my choice of words. Second: Andreas just came back from the doctor. He said thete's cancer all over his body, in his lungs, his bones, ... there are little black spots of cancer everywhere. There's no chance to operate. So they will start a chemo on Friday ... to win some time, only to win some time.
I want to die so badly..... honestly.
He's everything to me. I don't want to be without him. I lost contact to most real life friends over the time - for the last 10 years it always has been him and me (and Emma since August). I'm so very afraid. I don't know what to do. And I'm afraid of how all that will feel in a few hours when there's no alcohol in my blood anymore.
Thank you for all your sweet words to my last entry. Much love, Claudia
I want to die so badly..... honestly.
He's everything to me. I don't want to be without him. I lost contact to most real life friends over the time - for the last 10 years it always has been him and me (and Emma since August). I'm so very afraid. I don't know what to do. And I'm afraid of how all that will feel in a few hours when there's no alcohol in my blood anymore.
Thank you for all your sweet words to my last entry. Much love, Claudia